The tears that you can...4 hours 21 min ago I'm on Spring Break at the moment and honestly, enjoying it more then I've enjoyed anything for a long time.
Friday was a pretty good last day before break. But I have this friend, Sarah, who told my best friend that I was....lets see....."annoying", "she can choose her own friends", and "doesn't want to talk to me unless... # of Views: 3 / Comments: / Tags: No tags. |
Mistake16 hours 3 min ago
A little over a year ago I was with my two friends |
gone for awhile, never...1 day 1 hour ago what is recovery anyway? a stretch to reach a point of normality, im not fucking normal, i lie to myself everyday. can't find an end
skye # of Views: 18 / Comments: / Tags: No tags. |
Who Knows3 days 8 hours ago
Get my degree, join the Peace Corps, help people, bring something good the world. Without all of the details, those are my dreams. I want to be somebody, be |
why am i so weird?3 days 9 hours ago God! what s wrong with me? im such a screw up,tha's why he hits me,that's why i cut too. if only i could be a little closer to normal,then we might be a happy family again. i don't see why i can't make him happy,only vodka does,if i could do something right,maybe he won't hit me as much,or mom would come from her "trip" and we'll go to the...# of Views: 39 / Comments: / Tags: weird |
Need It!4 days 11 hours ago Little over a week without my Relief. It feels like eternity. # of Views: 18 / Comments: / Tags: No tags. |
we're all lying to...4 days 14 hours ago I've only ever told three people about my problem. Two of them don't live here, so I never have to face them; telling them was easy and painless because they couldn't do anything about it. And the one is anorexic, so he can't help me. Our problems come down to the same roots, and until he wants to change, he'll just condone my problem, too... # of Views: 22 / Comments: / Tags: No tags. |
Only For Myself5 days 5 hours ago I took advantage of my privacy, my time of trusted alone time. I just got back from the kitchen. I used a knife. It hurt so good. I haven't cut in two weeks. I needed it. The guilt now overpowers the initial feeling of bliss and happiness. Yes, happiness. How can I actually feel happy??? Because im in control. The one and only thing in my... # of Views: 30 / Comments: / Tags: No tags. |
my sexual abuse5 days 11 hours ago lately i've been thinking about my past sexual abuse and all that not so fun stuff.... i dont know why but i cant get it out of my head! its driving me crazy....i just want it to end. i dont wanna think about it anymore, i dont wanna remember. i hate remembering.
why did they have to do that to me? what did i do to deserve... # of Views: 45 / Comments: / Tags: No tags. |
Failed....again.1 week 17 hours ago So, I've been able to stop cutting for six months.
I thought, wow, I actually have this down. I'm "recovered".
Then yesterday came and everything completely falls out from under me. My EX step-dad (for the moment) came over and then I had to play my little role. I sit in around him and my mom and laugh and... # of Views: 25 / Comments: / Tags: No tags. |