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Im not shure what to right in this blog,never done one before. For that matter I dont know how I ended up using SI so much latly. I supose That the whole thing started back in high school. Once in a wile I would cut to cope and this worked out prity well at the time. My mental illness was just starting back then I was soooo depressed most of the time. Now I am 34 and still strugling with SI and with other mental illnesses. I do see a therapest wich helps me a lot but latly....this past week or so I keep turing to my old cutting habit, Im compelled to do it. Im so depressed and cuting is the onily thing wich helps. But there is the clincher it dosent REALY help it hurts me. I went to see my therapest today and Im going back tomaro,Feeling gilty about what Ive done and what Im going to do. Not to menton takeing up his time and enegry on a usless cause. Heck, I guess Ill go for my husbands sake....maby Ill get a merical.