while the cuts are healing on my upper leg as I type this I wonder how I got this bad agian. I am a married 24 year old but I feel alone in this world. My wife tells me I am beautiful but when I look in the mirror all i see is fat, ugliness. I hate the way I look and I have tried diet after diet and nothing works. I would love to be talking to my best friend about this instead of keeping it inside but he does not have time for me anymore no one does. I get a good morning text and that is it. I try to not let it bother me but it does. the only one that would talk to me and help me is in Japan and that is my little brother he is a marine and while I am happy for him I am also heart broken it has been almost a year since I have seen him and I miss him more everyday and it is not getting better. I want it all to get better but until it does i will have my stash of razors as my friends and they always have time for me and can't leave me.......i hate my life