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Emo can mean two completely two different things to people.

One one side, it can label how you dress and what kind of music you listen to. On the other side, it's an excuse people use to cover their self-injury or suicidal tendencies. The point of this blog isn't to tell you that you shouldn't waste your time being emo, but that being emo doesnt' have to mean you be something you're not because you want to hide your scars.

I considered myself emo for a while. Me and my friends would laugh at how I was emo with the all black (shirt, pants, shoes and nail polish) and the emo hairstyle (whatever that really was). When really it was an excuse to wear arm sleeves that would cover my arm long scars.

But then one day, after cutting, I thought to myself how I hated doing this and covering it up.

So after those cuts healed, I wore my arms bare. Sure enough, I was questioned. I lost friendships. I was called a freak and weird and laughed at. My life felt like it split in two after it had already split in four. I felt like my life was truly over, and it was all because I was so stupid.

Then I was asked that one question by one of the people who I was "de-friended" by. Why? What would my answer be? I didn't wanna voice out my whole tramatic life story and just disturb my metal sanity. So I told her something. I didn't really realize what I was saying till after I said it.

People don't like drunks, but they still drink at parties. People sit in non-smoking section in restaurants, but they still enjoying smoking a whole pack of it a day. People callself-injurers freaks and monsters, but they also take all their emotions out on other people. That's why I do it. Because my problems are bad, but not worth my friend's time. I need to deal with them on my own. And the result are my battle scars. So love them or hate them, I don't care, but they're here to stay.

She hugged me, appologised and asked for my friendship back. I gave it to her. Now we are still best friends to this day. People stopped teasing me after a while. They got bored with teasing someone they couldn't get a reaction out of.

Now I know that story doesn't seem relevant, but trust me, it is. The point is, don't be aftraid to show your battle scars. You battle wih some inner pains, and sometimes, they win. Hence your battle scars. But the thing to remember is that, they may win the battle, but not the war. So stay strong. You may feel like you will lose friends and you will get teased. Yes, you may. But if they can't accept you like you are, then what kind of friend are they? And as for the bullies, as long as you stay close to you friends, they'll go away. Either litteraly or you'll just stop noticing them. You're enjoying your life like you should to be bothered with petty people who just want to feel better about themselves. Every single one of us out here in this world are beautiful in our own way. My way is my battle scars. I find them very beautiful. They signify that I battled my inner demons and won, because I'm still alive; they didn't kill me.

So as strong, stay alive, and most importantly, stay emo. But stay emo because you enjoy the clothing and the music, not because you need a cover up.