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As of today, I have been 14 weeks and a day SI-free. And this morning at work, when my mind was dangerously wandering to the idea of SI and thinking about how I have managed to restrain myself for so long with no relapse, I wondered about whether or not I actually felt the inclination to SI. And for that minute of my day, I actually was the slightest bit disgusted at the idea of cutting. I was shocked, so I thought again about the action, the sensation, the everything - and for the first time in forever, I honestly did not want to. I mean, I can feel it seeping back in like a round of pain medication wearing off. But has my mind actually begin to fight away the need? I'm still in shock.

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MizzSolitary Val MizzSolitary Val

Wonderful

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Each day, fro this day on, will be easier. Some will seem as if you're fighting a battle, and others as if you're taking a quiet walk. You've done wonderfully!

 

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That tore their wings upon a thorn, you'll know the pain they e

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AliceUnderWater AliceUnderWater

I am glad you are

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I am glad you are accomplishing what you wanted to do. 

♥ Alice

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Summer Summer

That's fantastic!

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That's fantastic. First of all not doing any SI for 14 weeks is a great accomplishment. And on top of that you no longer feel addicted to it, but find the idea of it disgusting. That shows that you are really overcoming it. That's really great!

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shard_of_light (not verified)

Wow, that's great. I really

1 year () (Permalink)

Wow, that's great. I really hope you can keep fighting.

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