All i remember from certain parts of my life are just really bad moments and the rest of my memory seems erased. When i was younger (about 10) and wasnt in school all i remember is always reading a book by myself, never talking. i tink this is how my depression/ isolation began. I remember my sister telling my mom its "not normal" and "dangerous" how much time i spend in my head.

Another example is a couple of months ago in school i cant remember anything that happened, all i really remember is writing about my depression in my journal and almost having a mental breakdown in class one day.

Its like i'm dead for long periods at a time, and only remember a couple of things. It makes me wonder if anybody notices, because i certainly dont remember how i act in these times. i know i try hard to act normal. Does anybody else suffer from this? All i know that right now im alive and i intend to enjoy it while i can because i never know when i'll go back under again.