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Printer-friendly versionI feel stupid. What makes me ever think that someone will notice and care about me? Why do i keep thinking that someone is going to save me from myself? I sit with my "friends" but i am ignored by them. None of them can see that i am dying inside. And i dont know how to show them.
How can i make them see? i want them to care about me, notice me, try to help me. I act happy around them and as much as i hate this acting i cant stop myself.
I want to die sometimes, because on the inside i already consider myself dead. But no one has noticed yet. Maybe i'm too good of an actress. But i thought maybe someone could see though my act and notice that i'm lost, depressed, and in so much pain and despair.
Why wont any of my friends save me?
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i understand
2 years () (Permalink)i agree with allie-rose in the way that maybe they really do think you are happy and it's not their fault. it's not yours either but have u tried showing them or talking to them about anything? sometimes that helps sometimes it doesnt. you might be surprised who will be supportive and caring:)
but they cant' save you. i felt and still feel the same way. i need so desperately for someone to save me but i know they can't and i don't want anyone to. if tht makes sense? i don't know. but i do understand you. :)
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Hey (: I know it seems
2 years () (Permalink)Hey (:
I know it seems like our friends should be the ones who know us most and should be able to see when we're upset etc, but sometimes it's harder than it seems. If , like you said, you act happy around them, then maybe they've just taken that act as you actually being happy. Maybe you should try telling one of your closest friends? perhaps a letter or have a sleepover and get chattingg? It probably seems like they wont understand but If they're real friends then they would; if not, you don't need them.
If you need a natter, i'm here
Allie xx (:
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Hey (: I know it seems
2 years () (Permalink)Hey (:
I know it seems like our friends should be the ones who know us most and should be able to see when we're upset etc, but sometimes it's harder than it seems. If , like you said, you act happy around them, then maybe they've just taken that act as you actually being happy. Maybe you should try telling one of your closest friends? perhaps a letter or have a sleepover and get chattingg? It probably seems like they wont understand but If they're real friends then they would; if not, you don't need them.
If you need a natter, i'm here
Allie xx (:
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