Your wondering what I am talking about huh? My week did not start so great. I ended up breaking a promise, first to myself. I am far from proud of that. Second,I broke a promise to a very close friend.I am not proud of that either. My week got better, not at first, but soon enough. I work at a middle school...yeah a middle school. The same old shit as when i was in middle school. Same clicks. Same meaness. Same wanna be's. Anyway there is a student that you can just tell is ..a loner. Last year he sat alone at his lunch table. I could never get him to come in to eat lunch. Everyday I asked, everyday he said no, iam okay. One day i saw him with his mom and understood completely why he was the way he is. He saw me and looked away, red faced. She was awful! I pretended to not see him or his desgusting mother! Anyway summer came and went. This year he has came in to eat almost everyday to lunch. I make a point to say hi, or " iI am glad your here today." He just lights up. The look on his faceand the smile is so perfect. Do I know what his home life is like? No. I can only guess. What iam trying to say is this.....my week started off awful. I saw no solution, but to cut, thinking it would make things in my life better.Did it, maybe , but just for the short time it toook to bleed. To feel sorry for myself, because i thought I was not inportant. If I had set out to do what I wanted and thought was best for me? Then what about Jon and all the others out there that need me.What about the people that need you? Will you be there for them? Even though you think different, they really do care and need you.
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Better end to a Shitty begining...
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This is the best thing I've read in ages
3 years () (Permalink)This is the best thing I've read in ages. Thank you for sharing. I feel glad for him and glad for you. You're so right, it's important not to forget about all the people who need you to be there for them.
I start again
And whatever pain may come
Today this ends
I’m Forgiving What I’ve Done
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3 years () (Permalink)I'm so glad you finally realized where you fit and how important you are, I wonder Why Jon came around like he did, Ya think maybe some evil finally left his life . I'm even more proud to have you in my life. You Did Good, Now, do it again, you'll be surprised at how you'll feel. Glad you stuck around, and Go do something "Silly" for yourself.


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