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great,just great

This month has just been terrible,i found a boyfriend,and he dumped me for my best friend 4 weeks later,my ex found me,and caused a domestic violence case,and C.P.S took my daughters away,crying and screaming.i was sent to a behavioral institution untill i could support myself and my kids,and,im failing school,again. i've been tardy 7 times,and missed 21 days all together.WHY DOES GOD HATE ME?? i've had some pretty bad times,but this is just crazy,i have
NO clue how to fix this mess,im out of the institution,but on heavy meds,and im only allowed to see my girls once a weekend,with supervision.This is bad,im going crazy without my kids,i know i complain sometimes,but im thankful for them,i miss not having a 4 year asking me a million questions a minute.and i miss my 3 month little girl.this is aweful,and so far,i've cut so many lines on my arms and legs,im running outta space.this is too much,i hate it :/

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unstable

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so many questions,but none of the answes

Today,it was raining,my daughter immediatly ran out to play in it,splahing around,in her own world of magic.and i wondered to myself,why do we lose the worlds magic? remember when we were little and everything was so magic and had secret meaning amd everything was possible? but now,all we can focus on is the bad,adults anyway.while watching her,i started to think,why cant we have our secret worlds back? i have many unanswerable questions,and im interested if you guys do to : P so,now is the question part-what are your guy's unasnwerable questions?

(i must say,i hope NOONE gets in a fight over this,it's not a debate,just what people think are unanswerable questions.)

a few of mine are

1.How can we PROVE that there's a god?

2.why do people trust you,no questions. when you say that there are 4 billion stars in the sky,but check to see when you say the grass is wet,or the stove is hot?

3.why do we always love the wrong people?(superman and lois lane,charlie brown and the little redheaded girl,romeo and juliet)

so,thats it,what are your guys's unanswerable questions?

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from there to here.

i have been asking myself how i got here,i used to be happy and all smiles.but now im here,a 15 year old mother,school drop out,just getting out of a abusive relationship,and all i can ask myself is why? why didnt i stay in school? why didnt i realize that my dream life was actually a nightmare? why did i keep making excuses for him? god,im so stupid,i couldve been something good,and i've ruined my life. i feel like im in a dream and i cant leave it. im stupid for staying with him in the first place,i should've ran the fist time he hit me,and now,im living with a friend,trying to find a job,with 4 broken ribs and scarred and cut up arms,and pregnant.im screwd,nobody is going to hire me,and noone will want me in school.i tried throwing away my blades and lighter,but 2 hours later,i got them out of the trash again,im so worthless,how am i suppose to make life better for my daughter and soon to be baby,when i cant even get myself better?? im already broke,bruised up,cut up,pregnant,dont have an education.no parents,and cant get a house or drive,what a stupid waste of skin i am.

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Letter to you

Dear you horrid,horrid person,

for 4 years,i lived in fear of you,for 4 years i survived your beatings,and your words,and your lies.i had your child,but you still didnt get better.now,im away,we're away,and our life is better without you.i thought you loved me,you wanted me.but no,i was only your punching bag,and your sex doll.but no more,no more ever.now that im away from you,i have one question,why didnt you love me? was it something i did? becuase i loved you enough,i loved you enough to tolerate your drinking,enough to tell lies to everybody when you beat me,and enoguh to have your baby,and enough to try and get you some help. but you never showed any love. another question of mine,is,did it make you feel strong? when your fist colidied with my fave,and your foot met my ribs and stomach? did you feel powerful when me and your daughter were cowering in the corner from your drunken fits? well,you know what,youre not a man,your a coward,not even that,your a sick,disgusting excuse for a human,not even in the catagory as scum,just like everyone else like you,so goodbye forever you sick bastard,i hope you burn in hell.

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No More

i cant take it anymore,none of im so worthless,im a waste of skin.im all bruised and scarred up,and i cant stop,not for anything,i've tried over and ovr again to stop,but i cant.i cant handle anything anymore,so,im really thinking about ending it all.i have what i need to do it,but im afraid too.like,what happens to my daughter? where will she go if i end  it? i just cant take my life.im sending my daughter to my friends house for a while,untill i can figure out what im gonna do.but i want to end my life,i got a bottle of pills and a knife.i just want out.i dont know what else to do,i dont know how to escape from him any other way,can someone please give me some kinda advice? please,it's just too much

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He loves me,right?

Ok,me and my boyfriend had a huge fight last night,well,he got drunk and started screaming at me.anyway,he hit me again.i have a huge bruise on my back,and on my face.later,he told me he loved me,and,if i couuld i do something right,he wouldnt have hit me. it's not the first time he'd hit me,but he loves me,right? with every love comes pain,some pain,a bit more extreme then others,but it's still love,right?

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what to do?

Hi people,ok,so a few days ago,my  uncle  raped me,it was late and he was drunk,he just came in and that was it.he said he'd kill me if i told,but,since that,i've been cutting myself more and more,and i've just been so depressed lately. i don't know what to do,i can't think of anyone to talk to,and,i'm ashamed.i feel it's my fault,and that i'm wortless for letting him do that.but i had no choice,he cam in with a knife and help it aginst my throat.i had stopped cutting and was clean for 3 months,but in just these few days,i've made like,28 new cuts all over my body,i'm out of space on my arms.does anyone have any suggestions if what i can do? i ran away from my uncle's house and am staying with a friend,she doesn't know,but i'm going to have to do something before i'm sent back.if anyone can please help me figure out what to do,i'd really appreciate it,i just can't think of any way to cope except cutting myself.i know i have to stop,but this just took me back to step one,so please,if you have any advice,please help me tr to deal with this.thanks

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