When I started homeschooling, I told myself I'd be dead by April. I got scared of myself and reached out. I gave out hints that no-one seemed to grasp. I just came out and said it in my shaking voice. I don't want to grow up, but I think I already have. I don't want to turn 15, or anything over that because I'm scared of my future. What if I'm...
Fifteen was the exact age my life went into a downward spiral. The exact age. I struggled with SI for about two years, at ages 15 and 16. I'll tell you, making it to 17 made a difference.
My future at 15 seemed murky at best, and nightmarish at worst. I am 30 now, and I am so grateful I did not give up on myself. I know you can...
Sometimes, I don't know if I want to get better; I guess I'm afraid of letting go, and learning what it is like to genuinely be happy. It's almost been two months for me - I can't believe I'm actually saying that. But my scars are bad but they aren't risen anymore. It feels abnormal to have smooth skin.
I feel the same urges sometimes. I want to cut SO BADLY because I tell myself it will feel so good. But I know that cutting is a battle I'm fighting. And I don't want to give in.
You're doing so well, and I know it's hard (it's been two months for me and I still struggle) but you can do this. Remember, people believe in you <3
I'm so happy things worked out for you and you were able to run again. Although I dislike running, I'm glad you were able to continue to do something you love (:
Thank-you so much, Cookiesamilk, that means a lot to me! I am so happy you are a runner, too! It is my favorite exercise. Keep up with your own running and thanks again for all your support and encouragement!
This is great! I'm so glad you ran it! I'm a runner too, I could never imagine not being able to run. I would probably still train if I had a broken leg ;) I'm glad you stuck with it! I'm sure you'll get rid of those 10 extra minutes in no time! Congratulations!
My name is Gabrielle and I am twenty-eight years old. I began to self-injure at age fifteen -- so nearly thirteen years minus a two year period. This website is one about self-injury (self-harm), made to let self-injurers know that they are not alone and to help their friends and family learn more about self-injury and how it affects their loved one.
