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this is so funny i didnt find places like this for my own language , so if u re reading this sorry for my english , im a spanish native speaker ,
well the reason for im here its because im going to lose the only reason that i was have to live , u can say u ve friends u ve health u ve a family
hmmm well i dont have a bloody job, im a high license girl with several courses in hand but this doesnt even help to find a job or maybe for my conditon i avoided to ve one , whatever thats shit now .
friends haha? u can find me on msn everytime i dont ve friends im alone , i ve my boyfriend that i meet him 2 years ago but for economic situations i cant be with him and i think i wont , i dont know how to break with him now? because they that im going to break its the day that i will finish with my own life. i cant talk with him about my feels because he just lose his brother for suicidal reasons too. so wtf
i was sure that with him my life will go to change to make a family to give my life to him , to start over in a new country but this wont be happen.

i dont know how many time i will wait to break with him i ve 2 months and maybe he will break with me first cuz he know too that all what he is doing its impossible for us .
he is my angel and my reason and i know by him how does a mother feels, my dad its a sick person and old too and im scared about it i mean
i dont want that anything happens to him after my death.
thats all for today