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The world is spinning. The floor is tilted. I stumble across the mad swirling blur of what usually is a floor.  The noise in my head won't calm down. I blink. One whole week has gone by. When will all of this end? Needless to say, the dr's visit resulting in a diagnosis of Vertigo was just the beginning of the triggers this annoyance has jarred loose. There is no escape from this tilt a whirl I am on. I'm so tempted to resort to old coping strategies, to cut just feel safe in my own skin. I feel so out of sorts, so out of control. To feel something other than THIS.  The side effec of the medicaion they have given me is dizziness. Why on earth would you manufacture a medication for Vertigo with the side effect of dizziness? That just seems kind of assinine to me.

Anyway, I've decided to feel my way through this by watching crappy Hulu and Sling internet TV shows and movies with my partner.

I just want to scream right now. I am so immensely frusrated. No one can tell me when this is going to go away. Perhaps I'll think of it as a natural high.

I sure got some funny looks stumbling around at the store buying my sweetie Valentines Day candy today with a friend as I wove in and out of aisles nearly falling all over the place, they must have thought I was wasted. Lol. I'm clean and sober. I just went with it. You see? You can have fun with your afflictions.

Anyway, I'm out, visions too blurry to type much more than this...