I went to the store and bought my first pack of blades in well over two years, nearly three upon thinking about it. I don't know what to make of it. I have cut a handful of times in that time period but it was always some crappy razor blade I had to take apart or something where I did not go to the store and buy it. I stopped cutting almost completely for nearly two years aside from one slipup that did nothing for me. Then it started going funny.
I don't know when I'll use them. Tonight, tomorrow, next week, next month. I do know I likely will. I'm not sure I want to tell my therapist.
I'm confused about why I bought them. I do know it feels right and that makes me angry..
