I thought this Christmas would run smoothly. I'm going to my dad's house for Christmas for the first time since third grade. Everything was planned out ahead of time. Or so I thought. See my mom had schedualed a therapy appointment for the tuseday after Christmas and a family counsuling appointment on wednesday. I thought 'oh yeah my Dad won't have a problem with that.' I didn't even think about going to see relatives and stuff. I am so stupid. So now he and my mom are at it again because I was stupid enough to forget about actually doing stuff with family over the holidays. stupid stupid stupid. I'f I would have thought about it I could have said something to my mom before she made the appointments. I failed big time. Ha why did I think that for some reason this holiday out of all the other holidays would ru smoothly. I screwed up yet again. I seem to be good at that. I really hope that this is just a rough patch and everything else will be ok. I'm so scared it wont be. I really dont want to be the rope in my parents game of tug-a-war.