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Letting Go
Printer-friendly versionFirstly I want to apologise for my last blog post from about 10 days ago and thank those who commented - it dreally did help me to feel better. I felt as though my whole world had collapsed around me and at first I wasn't sure how to cope without reverting back to my old ways. But I held on and have been feeling steadily better ever since, so thank you.
The other day I made a decision and since then I have felt a great sense of peace with myself, with the world and with everyone around me. I realised now was the time to let go. A few weeks ago I wanted to die and could quite happily have laid down and watched the life pour out of me. Now I realise that would have to be the worst way to feel better? If I was dead I couldn't feel at all. The future is too exciting, too great and too full of hope now to even let those thoughts enter my mind.
The other day I let go of my past. For good. I have forgiven those who have done wrong and have vowed to forgive those who will do wrong in the future. Everyone will make mistakes in their life and some will be bigger than others but I believe the ability to forgive others is an extremeley valuable and often overlooked trait. I still do not understand everything which has gone on in my past and the reasons behind other peoples actions but I still have the ability to forgive. By forgiving I can move on, let go of my grudges and bad feelings and begin the rest of my life.
I understand it is hard but I urge all of you out there still struggling to try and forgive. Forgive others and more importanmtly be able tof orgive yourself for your mistakes. By forgiving ourselves and coming to terms with what has gone wrong we can become better people. I know there are some things it is impossible to forgive people for but forgive the sitiuation, forgive the world for giving you such a rough ride and look back on the past as something you can learn from and something which has made you the person you are today. A strong person who deserves to be happy.
You may be surprised, as I was, by the sense of peace which comes with it.
Hope everyone is ok out there.
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Thankyou
1 year () (Permalink)This is amazing, thankyou for making me think.
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Wow, that's a big step in the
2 years () (Permalink)Wow, that's a big step in the right direction IsabelleMcD! The ability to let go of your past and forgive those that have wronged you is a key step in recovering. I'm really proud of you IsabelleMcD and it truly goes to show how strong you are both physically and mentally. I wish I was like you able to let go of the past and forgive those that have wronged me but that's something that most likely will never happen. I've been through to much of a hell to forgive those in my life that hide behind the word family like it gives them instant forgiveness for what they've done to me. And sadly I still haven't talked about a lot of the stuff that has happened to me because I've never come to terms with it personally. Still I hope I'm wrong and some day I can let go of my past and forgive those that have wronged me.
Take care and have a good Monday!
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thank you so much
2 years () (Permalink)Thank you. You just made me realize something really really really big. I started SI'ing again when I began to realize how much my parents hurt me. Seriously, I don't know why I didn't make the connection before. Maybe once I forgive them, I'll stop cutting. That's what happened last time. I forgave the person who had hurt me and made my childhood end... then I stopped.
You have no idea how much you just helped me. Thank you for sharing your experiences and your words.
Peace, and best of luck.
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