yeah i understand what you mean. it is a bit hard to respect someones feeling when you haven't experienced being in a real relationship. i would suggest just waiting till you feel it is the appropriate time for you and he should understand that. it's good that you haven't given in to doing what he wants. he should know to wait until you feel its right to try. and you've had a lot of incidents? like what? if you don't mind me asking. and i also worry..a lot... about getting pregnant. its constantly on my mind and its just a bit scary to me. i hope everything works out fine for the both of you. i give you all my luck. hopefully his job will make things a bit easier on the two of you.

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My last boyfriend was the same way. he always presured me into having sex with him or if i refused sometimes even forceing me. its somthing i think about almost everyday. but the thing is you have to realize that you cant change the past. it doesnt make u a slut. if it does then almost every girl in t he world would be listed as sluts. but there is a diffrence. most of them girls. thay came onto the guys, giving them the idea becouse they wanted to have sex. but being forced and presured and threatened....thats diffrent. it couldnt be helped. so just try to think of it like this. try to forget about it and stop blameing your self, blame them. and look forward to the future becouse you have learned from your mistakes,