ALICE IAM SORRY FOR CALLING YOU A LIAR AND SAYING THAT YOU ARE FAKE THIS IS NOT TURE ITS ALL MY FAULT I MADE A MISTAKE . ALICE HAS BEEN THE ONE THERE FOR ME WHEN I NEED HER AND I LET HER DOWN AND FOR THAT IAM SORRY . THIS IS MY LAST BLOG . TO EVERYONE WHO HELPED ME THANK YOU I DON'T DESERVE TO STAY HERE I HURT PEOPLE WHO WERE TRYING TO HELP ME . IAM SORRY IT WAS ME (PUNKY) I MADE THE MESS . I HOPE YOU FOR GIVE ME . I TURNED INTO ONE OF THOSE PEOPLE THAT I HATE IAM SORRY.
I HATE FAKE PEOPLE !!!! I HATE WHEN PEOPLE ACT LIKE THEY KNOW YOU AND KNOW WHAT YOU ARE GOING THOUGH BUT THEY HAVE NO IDEA ABOUT SI. POST FAKE PICTURES OF SI . AND LIE ABOUT IT!!! FUCK YOU AND YOU KNOW WHO YOU ARE SI. IS NOT TO BE MADE FUN OF OR LIE ABOUT .FUCK YOU !!!!! LIAR
I FEEL SO ALONE RIGHT NOW . I HATE TO SIT IN A EMPTY HOUSE ALL ALONE MY MIND GOES CRAZY . ALL KINDS OF THOUGHTS GO THOUGH MY HEAD I WANT TO SI. SOO BAD I CAN'T BE STRONG ANYMORE .
Why do people suck ?? please tell me . I hate it i try to do everything for the people that i love. But they aLWAYS sHIT ON ME !!!! FUCK IT iAM GOING TO SEE BLOOD TONITE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! iI HATE I HATE IT I HATE IT!!!!
i just woke up from having a bad dream . its raining outside i want to cut right now to get these thoughts out of my head. i want to go out side and cut in the rain. its been two weeks two long weeks . i have the blade in my hand no one is home all alone just me my blade and bad thoughts ..................
Wow today my best friend came over to hang out with me . We havent hung out in a long time . I hope the day is good we havent been getting along with each other these days. She has said some things that really hurt my feelings about my SLing and my sexaual abuse. she told me to get over it that it happenned a long time ago that iam not 7 yearsold anymore. she dosen't know that i was in the hospital for wanting to kill myself last week . i don't know if iam going to tell her . I want to because i need her BUT i don't know what i should do . i saw her looking @ my wrist looking for cuts . its been a week last time i cut . so i don't know what to do . to tell or not to tell!!!
my last post for a while @ the hospital they are about to take my phone and my ipod away. DAMIT!!!!! wish me luck iam scared . soo much in my head i feel crazy. love u guys. : l .
