I have been struggling for many weeks now. Last week I SI. It was bad I lost it. I dont get how I can go for months then just loose it in minutes. Stress level is so high I dont know what to do? Cant sleep for weeks. Just keep pushing myself. I want to see the light at the end of the tunnel. I guess its time to get on new meds and try to pick up the pieces before I destroy whats good in my life. Things have got to get better soon.