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Not at all....

what I expected...actually I'm really not sure what I thought. I decided to tell my husband what I have been doing for the last 6 years. he didnt take it as well as I thought. I guess  dont know him as well as I thought. Although we have been together for over 17 years,I thought it would be different. It just made things worse. Now, Im back to cutting and he doesnt support me or get it. I feel like shit... Just wanted him to say " Dont worry Im here...Ill get help"

I guess Im on my own with this......


Blog entry published by 2 years ago ()

Ok...so I didnt expect that!

 

 

 

So I finally got the guts to tell my husband I cut... I has taken me six years to say it out loud. He stared at me for a few seconds and finally said "ok"

 

ok???  Thats it?? He still hasnt said a word aboutit and continues with today like I never said it!!

 

Wtf?


Blog entry published by 2 years ago ()

So much for crossed fingers........

 

 

Im so fucking frustrated. Today should be day 8 of not cutting I would have been the longest time! I didnt make it..I failed

Im so tired of this...there has to be something to stop this...

I cant cry.... I just want it to stop

How long can this monster stay in my closet

How long before they find out??

I have added more scars..

But the worst part...why I am I proud of them?

This "habit" is comforting yet Im tortured by it...

Anyone else out there understand...............


Blog entry published by 2 years ago ()

Cross your fingers for me....

 

 

 

I havent cut in 6 days...

I dont want to again

but yet the urge is till there

so...

cross your fingers I can hold out longer....


Blog entry published by 2 years ago ()

yep.......

 

 

 

i cut today....

why?

wth??


Blog entry published by 2 years ago ()

FINALLY !!! A positive.....

 

 

 

I like coming here...

Im accepted

everyone understands my secret

I can say it!

I CUT!

without Judgement..

without secrets....

without fear...

and the best part...

understanding.

I wish I had this freedom and understanding with family and friends


Blog entry published by 2 years ago ()

So I Failed again......

 

 

 

SO... I tried to tell him I hurt myself

And I failed AGAIN!

I cant seem to get the words out

I cant say "I need Help"

All it did was ....yep

another cut!

Im a failure


Blog entry published by 2 years ago ()

Why....

cant he hear my cries for help?

cant he see my cuts?

dont "they" see my pain?

do I hate myself so much?

cant I stop?

cant I just ask for help?

am I so weak I cant tell them?

cant I seem to do enough?

cant I control MY emotions??

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Blog entry published by 2 years ago ()