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Several months ago I stopped coming on here because my computer came downstairs, its back in my room now but I didn't come back yet still.

I was on a streak of no self-injury at all. Thing were happier, better, and I felt like I didn't need the support anymore.

boy was I wrong.

On the 6th hurt hit me when I found out my best friend online, I met her here as NotQuiteNormal, committed suicide that morning.

I can't help but blame myself because the way she died, I told her about those things as a warning to be careful... she still did them,

the past several months I've had issues with my mom, but they were calming down,

the very day after my mom mentions suicide again.

I found out yesterday on the 11th my friend Jesse almost died in a car accident.

My best friend in real life can't come to see me as much and stuff because she is having family issues.

my mom mentioned suicide again the 16th.

Things started getting a little stressful with school and all, so about the 3rd I started picking again... ending my five month streak.

I just felt like giving up, and I started to really miss everyone here.

No matter how annoying I was you always listened, but I can't help but feel I have nothing to complain about,

So I just kind of hide.

Lani realized that the night before she died.

 

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Writer'sEuphoria Writer'sEuphoria

My Love To You

5 months () (Permalink)

I literally have no idea how to tell you Sullen, I am so sorry. All I can do is send you all the love I can from my heart. Remember that you aren't to blame. We all carry our own burdens

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Gabrielle Gabrielle

I was pretty shocked when I

7 months () (Permalink)

I was pretty shocked when I found out what happened. 

You're dealing with so much right now and it's all right to grieve, especially when you're not currently able to get the support you need in real life. 

I don't have the right words but just know that I read and that I'm thinking of you. 

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Sullen-Lost-Soul Sullen-Lost-Soul

Thank you Gabby,

7 months () (Permalink)

it just helps to know people care.

Love seems like a paradise, until it smacks you in the face.

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ameel ameel

you have made nothing worse

7 months () (Permalink)

you have made nothing worse to be honest you have made my life so much better , promise we stick together forever? <3 Love you <3

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ameel ameel

you know

7 months () (Permalink)

You know I am always here for you no matter what and I can help you in every way possible , it has kit me so hard with Lani passing away and it's been going down hill ever since and trust me your my best friend and even though you live the other side of the world I am always here for you through thick and thin and the same thing that your always there for me , I love you and don't you ever forget that <3

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Sullen-Lost-Soul Sullen-Lost-Soul

Thank you Lia...

7 months () (Permalink)

): if I knew things were gonna go downhill for you too, I would've shut up... I hate it when I make things worse.

Ily girl. ♥

Love seems like a paradise, until it smacks you in the face.

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