The last couple days I've tried to put my life in perspective..What am I doing with my life? Where am I headed? What are my plans for the future? So many questions running through my head..its like a never ending hamster wheel...No rest, No peace, Nothing. I've taken a step back and realized I've let depression and SI'ing rule my life lately, the depression for the most part. I've let it invade my soul and rest and grow and control everything about my life..I may put on a nice facade for everyone else like I'm happy go lucky but deep inside I know its not fooling many people anymore. I tried the drugs and they made me super sick so I cant go that route. I've talked to people who say that diet and exercise can help me and I really think they just might do that. All I have to do is try. Im tired of letting depression control me with a noose around my neck I want to beat this. I want to push it back down and never let it take hold of me again. I want my life back, I want my happiness back, I want to feel free again. I want my scars to fade until they are unrecognisable for what they truely are. Read more »
