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When I was in the hospital, I wrote. Day and night I would have written, but I had to sleep, but when I wasn't eating or sleeping, I was writing. It's what saved my wrecked sanity. I continue to write: journal, poetry, prose; but not with out feeling paranoid. The little privacy I owned, is now gone; my mom doesn't respect that. How do I make her understand that I NEED some space? That I'm sorry: for not being her perfect daughter, for not always wanting to live, for keeping secrets; but despite all that, I need the comfort of knowing my thoughts and feelings are mine, and not hers.

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kjb21 (not verified)

completely identitfy with you

2 years () (Permalink)

i understand completely! im also a writer (poems, short stories, rants and raves in my journal haha) and my mom does not respect that. when she found out i was cutting she searched my room and found my journal, and threw it away. i was pissed! then a few months ago she raided my room again and i had thrown away a few poems so she wouldn't see them...well she went through my garbage, read the poems, confronted me about what they ment ( i told her nothing...) and then burned those. she thinks because i write i have problems. yes, i have problems...but writing is what helps me figure them out, or at least, keeps me sane. so i can identify:)

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Yes! They just don't

2 years () (Permalink)

Yes! They just don't understand! It's so annoying. She went through my art notebook and there she found one of my drawings (an arm with blood-actual blood- and cuts on it) and she confronted me about that. Since then I haven't seen it. Right now I keep my journal hidden as much as it can be, but I'm paranoid; I feel she continues to read it. A while back I got an online diary and that has really helped. It's more private (my mom will never get to it :D!), but it's still not the same thing as writing in paper. From what you say, your mom REALLY dislikes you writing at all! I think my mom likes that I write, but only so she can later read it. It's annoying!!!

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kjb21 (not verified)

you put actual blood on your

2 years () (Permalink)

you put actual blood on your paper to? wow i thought i was the only one. isn't that wierd that we do that? i keep my journal hidden to. for all my mom knows, i haven't been writing at all.  you are right. ive had online journals before to or just a private blog and that does help, but i prefer actual pen and paper.

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