I had another fight with my ex boyfriend today. Yeah, I know what you're thinking-- oh, another one of "those." No.
I can't ever seem to just have a "normal" relationship. And this time has been no exception.
We were friends before we started dating. Pretty good friends. I really cared so much about him. When things didn't work out between us in our relationship, I tried to make our break-up really easy. I didn't freak out at him, I didn't get hysterical. I told him I was realy sorry things couldn't work, and that I just wanted us to stay close. And I tried to still be there for him, tried to just act like nothing had happened.
Not meant to be, apparently. Ever since we broke up, he has tried to make me hate him. He has tried to hurt me over and over. He's admitted it. I keep trying to be there for him, I let him talk to me when he wants to or acts like he needs to. But it always ends the same-- he tries to hurt me.
Well, today he got angry because he said "I keep trying to hurt you and it's not working."
That DID hurt me. But I didn't tell him that. All I can think is, why does he want to hurt me? Why does he want to cause me more pain? He knows. He knows what's been happening to me, how it's made me hurt myself. And he wants to add to that.