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I should probably introduce myself..

I feel that I need to stay anonymous. No matter what kind of blog I try to keep, people that I know always seem to find it, and I want a space where I can be free to talk about my issues where nobody is going to judge me. Maybe if someone gets to know me, I'll tell them who I am, but for now I'd prefer to stay anonymous. I shall tell you everything about me, bar my name and where I live specifically.
So I am an eighteen year old female from North England. I was brought up by my Mum. I didn't know my Dad until the age of seven. He got in touch and said,' If I'm paying for it, I wanna see it.' Mum should have known then it would end badly. He kept coming to visit for a few weeks. He gave me a christmas card and a Gabrielle CD (as he'd recieved two.) He even asked me what I wanted for my birthday. I told him I wanted a pink scooter, but that my Mum couldn't afford one. He came round the day before my 8th birthday and gave me this present. He told me I could unwrap it then as he wanted to see if I liked it. It was exactly what I'd asked for. I scooted round and round the cul-de-sac, in my element. He told me that he would phone me the next day to wish me a happy birthday, and that he would be round to see me the next weekend. I waved him off as he left in his shiny red car. 
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I should probably introduce myself.. in Blog entry published by 2 months ago ()

a person to talk to would be nice , about this .

i just got on this website. i dont even know who is on something like this, nor who im even talking to. but hell your on here for pretty much the same reasons i am. my friend has one of these & she said that it doesnt take away all ur feelings, but i guess it helps her. so maybe, just maybe someone will read this, someone will know how it feels to think about that sweet sweet metal , piercing pain. just to have that feel of control. i hope that someone does read this, because i truly dont know how much more i can indoor. god, a 15 year old girl already thinking about ending life. wonderful ,,

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a person to talk to would be nice , about this . in Blog entry published by Anonymous 3 months ago ()

I am in a bad place (trigger)

My best friends are away for the holidays, my support is high, my cat's in the closet. And I need help. I just need help. I can't breathe, I can't eat, I've been panicking like no other. My depression (I hate to say that) is worse than it used to be; I feel myself reverting back to the hayday of my depression, where I am not able to do anything.  I have to work in an hour and a half, and I can't do anything. My arm is covered in fresh cuts, and I wear short sleeves to work. I can't hide it. I'm so scared. What if I get fired over it? It's a legitimate possibility. I have to be happy and shit all the time, so I could probably get fired for having "FUCK" cut into my arm for all to see. Ugh. I don't know. I'm so sad.

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crankthetank I am in a bad place (trigger) in Blog entry published by 2 years ago ()