today i was discharged from hospital after trying to through myself infront of a train fmlj
I don't think that means you're 'crazy'. It means you're suicidal, potentially associated with a mental illness or your living situation (causing depression and such). Mental illness doesn't mean 'crazy', if you do have one.
I can I view my body realistically?
My therapist & nutritionist have run out of ideas, besides just waiting for me to go to Renfrew. I think about my weight all the time. Whenever my legs touch I completely Spazz. Or if clothes touch my body. Or if I jiggle at all. I suck in my stomache all the time, until I feel I might pass out....How can I change any of this?
You have to accept that your body will never be perfect. Not because you cannot be beautiful or attractive but because what your mind dictates is impossible to achieve.
I doubt anything I say will change your mind. I know when I had problems with starving and purging nothing could change my mind about how my body looked. I was thinner than I am today yet more critical. The dictator in your head never completely goes away but it can lessen.
Things like throwing the scale away, getting your mind off the physicality of it all, can be a start. However, if you're not read to make that start then perhaps Refrew will help you make your choice. You can either choose to live - or die - with an eating disorder or go down a different path. It's all up to you. I can't change anything no matter how much I write, only you can.
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My name is Gabrielle and I am twenty-eight years old. I began to self-injure at age fifteen -- so nearly thirteen years -- minus a two year period. This website was made to let self-injurers know that they are not alone and to help their friends and family learn more about self-injury and how it affects their loved one.
