In other news, what I mentioned about wanting to be hurt... I've been hanging with the local BDSM crowd for a month or two now. I've been to three parties and have a full list of others to attend in the future. I haven't "played" with anyone yet, but it's coming. I've watched a few flogging and rope sessions. No sex. Just pain. I couldn't help smiling. On the other end of it, I'm pretty sure this group, like so many others, thinks I"m weird and will cast me out soon. I go to the events, I hardly speak to anyone, and I show no emotion unless there's damage being done. A few members have tried to draw me into the socializing, but I'm not very good at it. Ieft my solitaire game of pool long enough to say hi and went off on my own again.
I use a lot of things. Right now a pencil sharpener blade. I have used razor blades, blades from razors, pens, pencils, pushpins, compass points, screws, nails, fingernails, teeth, razors on tape dispensers, and many more things.
I liked this article. The only thing that I didn't like was what was said about hitting/bruising. That has been my main method of self-injury for two years. Hitting and bruising are just as dangerous as cutting and burning. Bruising can lead to broken bones or blood clots. And if a blood clot spreads to your heart it can kill you.
Just because the physical damage with hitting isn't as visible as cutting or burning, doesn't mean that the danger doesn't exist. I don't want people getting the idea that one form of self-injury is less dangerous than another. Bruising/hitting can escalate just like cutting and burning. Eventually the bruises will be bigger and more numerous. You'll need to hit with more force to get relief. When that starts to happen it's scary.
It gets so annoying... My 'friends' say they understand... Some cut but they're only tiny scratches and theres about 5 max... I have HUNDREDS!! Gone onto ankles and hips because I've run out of room! I can't wear white in fear of the blood that already floods my clothes will stain and I'll get laughed at! Most know... coz of PE and stuff... I refuse any form of councilling and help and I just want to be left alone! Nobody will lave me tho :(
I'm the same :) I'm just 13... I think I'm fat and me and my bf have been dating almost 2 months now... he knows that I self harm and everyone is trying to get me to stop... I wont listen but help is the best option to get better! Only problem is, I don't want to get better. My brother makes me feel like shit too but he is 2 years younger and I can't fight back! I'm told I look anorexic and my weakling friend can lift me with one arm... Literally!! I can't bear to look at the scales because I think I'm really fat... I refuse any form of help and as a result I am losing most of my friends :/ People are telling me that I'm just attention seeking and that makes me feel worse! My cuts are bad. Arm has healed but my ankles are a mess! Criss crossing all over inner ankles just around where my socks go... I hate myself a lot but just know, you're not alone! There are always people you can talk to... and even more that will love to listen. Its easy to forget! so chin up x
I use scissors and a needle mostly.
My primary favourite is a pencil sharpener blade. For some reason I don't use two-edged.
I've used so many things, glass I choose if I cant get a blade. I never really liked non-blade items like needles and such, for I wanted deep cuts, not shallow torn skin. Anything you can think of, I've used it. But I stay with pencil sharpeners.
My name is Gabrielle and I am twenty-eight years old. I began to self-injure at age fifteen -- so nearly thirteen years minus a two year period. This website is one about self-injury (self-harm), made to let self-injurers know that they are not alone and to help their friends and family learn more about self-injury and how it affects their loved one.
This is a community but there is an extensive FAQ about self-injury and a detailed series of pages about recovery from self-injury. There is also an pretty large list of resources for self-injurers. You can add creative works such as artwork and poetry. There is a detailed list of where self-injury appears in the media, be it movies, celebrities, music. It is both to show how self-injury affects media and has moved into the creative social conscious and as a trigger warning for those avoiding depictions of self-injury.