When the topic of self-injury comes up online; in forums, comments, youtube videos, the common retaliation is along the lines of 'I or others have experienced a worse life, worse things have happened to other people, why do you think yours is so bad?'
Personally, I don't think any of us try to claim that.
Some may have had really terrible things in their past, some may have had an ideal childhood.
It's not a competition.
It's not bad experiences or a terrible childhood or a series of bad events that led to my self-injury.
At least nothing terribly serious - it would be a lie if I blamed my SI on a hostile and occasionally violent relationship with my parents.
It's the small things. It's life. It's invalidated anger. It's having every thought or feeling expressed being disregarded and not taken seriously. It's internalized self-loathing. It's eye contact with strangers, and the loathing or dismissivness I perceive in their tone of voice, mannerisms, and facial expression. My loathing that I project onto them.
It's me, and my mind.
It bothers me that people think we are trying to hurt ourselves as a statement of how sad we are, in my experience, it's not sadness. Sadness is when I am too listless and unmotivated to do anything, which includes self-injury. Read more »