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My name is Claire and I am 13 years old. I have been "self-injuring" for only a couple months. I don't consider what I do real cutting, I call it repeatedly scratching until it bleeds. I don't think that the reason I hurt myself is very common, but what do I know? The very first time, I just wanted to try it, to see what it was like. My sister cuts her wrist. I wanted to know how it could possibly help to hurt yourself. Then, I got addicted. I told some people at school, my friends and friends of friends, about it and I even showed them my scars. I thought it was cool. They thought it was stupid, and pointless. One of the reasons I kept at it was my boyfriend. My boyfriend is the sort of skater guy. It made me feel closer to him to cut, even though he didn't. I told him I was cutting so he did it too. I'm not emo, I don't dress in all black. Only a few people I know that cut would fit this description. I guess I could be called a poser, because I cut to be "cool" or to "fit in". But this is an addiction to me. I cant stop. Sometimes, I just starting scratching my leg with a pair of scissors thinking, "Why am I so ugly? I am so fat. Nothing I do helps. Why can't I be perfect? Why did God make me this way?"