My Journey Through Depression, Suicide, and Self-Injury
Wed, 2009-07-01 13:11 — MissImperfectPrinter-friendly version
This is my take on how my journey through depression, suicide attempts, and my self-injury cycle. It's my first audio blog and contains some strong language and may be triggering.
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my friends always say crap
my friends always say crap about emo jokes and cutting. and i take it offensivley but i never say anything out loud. i havent gone swimming for 2 years. 2 reasons is that i hate my body image and 2 is because i cut/burn my wrists. and cut on my theighs. andsome scars have disappeared, but some havent and my friend already saw something she never confronted me about it though.
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I think it took alot guts to tell your story over the internet and i really liked listening to someone elses story. I used to self injure and it really sucks because i have the same problem. Some of my friends know about my scares and they always say crap like "ohh, i failed my chemistry test. I hate my life, i'm going to cut myslef!" And i feel horrible about myself everytime they say stuff like that. My mom noticed my cuts too and asked what they were from and i gave the most lamest excuse too. lol that my friends cat scratched me up. ahah and she believed me....The point is, i'm glad that i got to hear someone elses story for once.....Thanks. =)
Love, TPH
Omg.
I remember one day I went to the pool with all of my friends and I had cuts all over my right arm, I mean, EVERYWHERE.
And my friends knew about them, but they didn't bag on me for it.
But there were these boys at the pool who saw 'em and they decided to be fucking assholes and point it out what was on my arm right in front of me.
So I jumped in the pool and didn't come up to the surface for a bit. Like a 'min or two. My friend told them to leave me alone and it's none of their business what I do to myself.
I left the pool shortly after that.
I hate pools.
Apathetic&Careless
i know what you mean..
i went to the YMCA with my dad and i had them all over my stomach, arms and legs and guys there were like staring at me.. my dad didnt see them bc i put liquid foundation over them.. but still. guys are all total fucking douche bags about these kinda problems.. grr.. oh welll..
I can relate
I really enjoyed listening to this. Maybe enjoyed isn't the right word to use. I can definately relate to what you were saying and I admire you for having the courage to talk about your story, especially on the internet, where people can be even less understanding. I wish you the best in life.
I relate too
Its good to know Im not alone in feeling like you did. I also consider it a coping mechanism, esp. for things that cannot be changed.
The darkness never leaves, it remains a part of your soul 4eva.
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