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Yeah, I cut. Its addicting like a drug. I have been doing it for the past 3 years now. Why would somebody do such a thing? Why slice open your own arms and legs? Because. You can't control the things around you. You can't contain the excrusiating pain inside of you. The only way to let it out, the only way to control your life, is to control your pain. The outside pain eases the inside pain bit by bit and you feel so alive. When people find out, they will question. Then leave it alone like nothing ever happend. I'm not talking about when you say "I had an allergic reaction and had to scratch myself". I'm talking about when you are caught in the bloody mess, they will the next day pretend like nothing ever happend. It makes me sad, and sick. It makes me want to cut all over again. I don't cut for attention, I cut to release this pain of my past, present, and future. To release the pain inside that I cannot keep. But I just wish SOMEBODY would truly care. I just wish SOMEBODY will take me by the hand and say "don't lie, what's wrong?" I just wish somebody would hug me, hold me until I cry, then stop crying. I just wish somebody would be there for me, and never leave me. I just wish somebody would look at me with soft eyes, and in a stern voice tell me that this isn't the anser. Sometimes, I feel so low that I want to seriously die. I was told "if I gave you a gun, will you shoot yourself?" And ever since then, it hasn't sounded like a bad idea. Evreything will be fixed, and I will have stopped my mistakes, failures, and depression once and for all.