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My Journey Through Depression, Suicide, and Self-Injury
Printer-friendly versionThis is my take on how my journey through depression, suicide attempts, and my self-injury cycle. It's my first audio blog and contains some strong language and may be triggering.
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I cant watch the vid cuz my computer doesnt work...
1 year () (Permalink)but anyways, i have the simple solution to the whole pool thing! Its called a one piece bathing suit. I don't see why ppl risk getting their cuts seen when they can just where a one piece! I also have a little mini swimsuit skirt that came with the suit and it covers up pretty much everything! Its perfect, and i never really liked two pieces anyways! They always came off when i jumped off the diving board.. lolz! :)
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HATERZ can go SCREW
1 year () (Permalink)im often categorized as EMO because i dress in black (i am not GOTH either). i consider myself "PUNK". i get the whole EMO rant. its bullshit.
you are so brave to just get out there and do this, even though almost everyone i know knows that i cut, i dont think i could have done what you did. its totally kickass. (esp. for a cute little preppy catholic schoolgirl) ;)
much love, no flames. ♥Alice
♥ Alice
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hey it´s really brave of you
1 year () (Permalink)hey
it´s really brave of you to tell your story!
I used to cut and burn myself. I was sexually abused as a child and I also have a lot of problems with myself.I have stopped it a half year ago, but the crave to do it again sometimes is still there and I think it´ll never go away completely. It´s an addiction, even if people don´t see it that way.
One time unfortunately 2 of my friends saw my injures, when I unfortunately wasn´t as carefull as usual..They never talked about it. Is this good or bad?.. I still don´t know. I guess some people just pretend to care about their friends..
But one of my friends, she´s the most kind person on earth, didn´t see them, but she thought that something was wrong with me. So she just talked to me when we were alone. just talked. I was so glad that someone did listen to me for once!
I told her about hurting myself and then she wanted to see my injuries and I showed her. She told me that she´s worried about me and that I should stop. In that moment she was so deeply looking in my eyes and I really could see how scared she was and so I tried to stop it for her. I had done it 2 times again a while after that conversation, but then I could manage to stop it. I´m so glad that I´ve been lucky to have such a great friend.
I think if there´s only one person who really cares about you and is there for you, then you can make it. this person doesn´t have to be a relative or a friend.
So guys, don´t give up, maybe you already have this one person in your life and you just need to recognize it or you´ll find this person some day. I just wanted to help you a little bit with my story and I want to tell you please don´t give up! I know how it feels to live with this addiction, but there´s always a way! ;)
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I´ve been through that too..
1 year () (Permalink)hey
it´s really brave of you to tell your story!
I used to cut and burn myself. I was sexually abused as a child and I also have a lot of problems with myself.I have stopped it a half year ago, but the crave to do it again sometimes is still there and I think it´ll never go away completely. It´s an addiction, even if people don´t see it that way.
One time unfortunately 2 of my friends saw my injures, when I unfortunately wasn´t as carefull as usual..They never talked about it. Is this good or bad?.. I still don´t know. I guess some people just pretend to care about their friends..
But one of my friends, she´s the most kind person on earth, didn´t see them, but she thought that something was wrong with me. So she just talked to me when we were alone. just talked. I was so glad that someone did listen to me for once!
I told her about hurting myself and then she wanted to see my injuries and I showed her. She told me that she´s worried about me and that I should stop. In that moment she was so deeply looking in my eyes and I really could see how scared she was and so I tried to stop it for her. I had done it 2 times again a while after that conversation, but then I could manage to stop it. I´m so glad that I´ve been lucky to have such a great friend.
I think if there´s only one person who really cares about you and is there for you, then you can make it. this person doesn´t have to be a relative or a friend.
So guys, don´t give up, maybe you already have this one person in your life and you just need to recognize it or you´ll find this person some day. I just wanted to help you a little bit with my story and I want to tell you please don´t give up! I know how it feels to live with this addiction, but there´s always a way! ;)
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my friends always say crap
2 years () (Permalink)my friends always say crap about emo jokes and cutting. and i take it offensivley but i never say anything out loud. i havent gone swimming for 2 years. 2 reasons is that i hate my body image and 2 is because i cut/burn my wrists. and cut on my theighs. andsome scars have disappeared, but some havent and my friend already saw something she never confronted me about it though.
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2 years () (Permalink)I think it took alot guts to tell your story over the internet and i really liked listening to someone elses story. I used to self injure and it really sucks because i have the same problem. Some of my friends know about my scares and they always say crap like "ohh, i failed my chemistry test. I hate my life, i'm going to cut myslef!" And i feel horrible about myself everytime they say stuff like that. My mom noticed my cuts too and asked what they were from and i gave the most lamest excuse too. lol that my friends cat scratched me up. ahah and she believed me....The point is, i'm glad that i got to hear someone elses story for once.....Thanks. =)
Love, TPH
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Omg.
2 years () (Permalink)I remember one day I went to the pool with all of my friends and I had cuts all over my right arm, I mean, EVERYWHERE.
And my friends knew about them, but they didn't bag on me for it.
But there were these boys at the pool who saw 'em and they decided to be fucking assholes and point it out what was on my arm right in front of me.
So I jumped in the pool and didn't come up to the surface for a bit. Like a 'min or two. My friend told them to leave me alone and it's none of their business what I do to myself.
I left the pool shortly after that.
I hate pools.
Apathetic&Careless
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i know what you mean..
2 years () (Permalink)i went to the YMCA with my dad and i had them all over my stomach, arms and legs and guys there were like staring at me.. my dad didnt see them bc i put liquid foundation over them.. but still. guys are all total fucking douche bags about these kinda problems.. grr.. oh welll..
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I can relate
2 years () (Permalink)I really enjoyed listening to this. Maybe enjoyed isn't the right word to use. I can definately relate to what you were saying and I admire you for having the courage to talk about your story, especially on the internet, where people can be even less understanding. I wish you the best in life.
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I relate too
2 years () (Permalink)Its good to know Im not alone in feeling like you did. I also consider it a coping mechanism, esp. for things that cannot be changed.
The darkness never leaves, it remains a part of your soul 4eva.
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