“I'm living in a human teenage mediocrity.”

Angel's Fuck, Jack Off Jill Recommended by Jaine.

“Devil has a hot rod
Devil high on speed
Devil has a black dress
So her arms can bleed.”

Devil With The Black Dress On, Jack Off Jill Recommended by Elsa.

“Will you love me any less if I hurt you any more.”

Girlscout, Jack Off Jill Recommended by ces xxx.

“We are all candy covered on the outside
Peel away the shell and we're rotten from the inside.”

Lollirot, Jack Off Jill Recommended by Jaine.

“Curse me sold her
The poison that runs it's course through her
Pale white skin with strawberry gashes all over all over

Watch me fault her
You're living like a disaster
She said kill me faster
with strawberry gashes all over

Called her over
and asked her if she was improving
She said 'feels fine' it's wonderful wonderful here

Hex me told her
I dreamt of a devil that knew her
Pale white skin with strawberry gashes all over all over

Watch me fault her
You're living like a disaster
She said kill me faster
with strawberry gashes all over

I lay quiet
waiting for her voice to say
'Some things you lose and some things you just give away'

Scold me failed her
If only I'd held on tighter to her
Pale white skin that twisted and withered away from me away from me.”

Strawberry Gashes, Jack Off Jill Recommended by Elsa.

“I can change
I'll correct the defect
Repair the injury called you and me
I can change
I'll surrender to it
I can suffer with the best of them.”

Surgery, Jack Off Jill Recommended by WickedlyWretched.

“The apple falls far from the tree
she's rotten and so beautiful
I'd like to keep her here with me
and tell her that she's beautiful
She takes the pills to fall asleep
and dreams that she's invisible
Tormented dreams she stays awake
recalls when she was capable...”

Vivica, Jack Off Jill Recommended by Ashley.

“When I am queen I will insist with perfect scars upon my wrists
that everything you once held dear is taken away from you.”

When I Am Queen, Jack Off Jill Recommended by Ashley.

“I was 27 years old the first time I died. I remember there was white everywhere. There was war and I felt alive but really I was dead. Sometimes I think we live through things only to be able to say that it happened. That it wasn't to someone else, it was to me. Sometimes we live to beat the odds. I'm not crazy even though they thought I was. I live in the same world as everyone else; I just saw more of it, as I'm sure you have. They'll find my body tomorrow; you can check it out if you don't believe me.... Sometimes life can only really begin with the knowledge of death, that it can all end even when you least want it to. The important thing in life is to believe, while you are still alive, its never too late. I promise you, no matter how bad things look, they look better awake then they do asleep. When you die there is only one thing you want to happen. You want to come back.”

The Jacket [movie] Recommended by Kaylee.

“People are always tellin' me 'You're harming your body...you're gonna kill yourself.' They just dont realize that those are my intentions.”

“Sh...
Hush now.
Don't say a word.
Just see... watch me perform.
They clap and cheer when I come on stage.
Now this is very common at my age.
They watch me work, making my knots,
thinking that I am programmed like a robot.
I get everything ready and walk up the stairs.
There eyes widen not known what's really there.
I take my work and place it around my neck,
I step off the ledge to do my beautiful dance.
They here the crack, the breaking of my neck.
They cheer and clap now,
thinking nothing of it.
That they just witnessed a suicide,
that it was all real.”

-watch me-, Jackie

“He had kept each year in his own fashion the date of Mary Antrim's death. It would be more to the point perhaps to say that this occasion kept him: it kept him at least effectually from doing anything else. It took hold of him again and again with a hand of which time had softened but never loosened the touch. He waked to his feast of memory as consciously as he would have waked to his marriage-morn. Marriage had had of old but too little to say to the matter: for the girl who was to have been his bride there had been no bridal embrace. She had died of a malignant fever after the wedding-day had been fixed, and he had lost before fairly tasting it an affection that promised to fill his life to the brim.”

Altar of the Dead, Henry James

“Suicide was naturally the consistent course dictated by the logical intellect.”

Varieties of Religious Experience, William James

“To this latter way, the morbid-minded way, as we might call it, healthy-mindedness pure and simple seems unspeakably blind and shallow.”

Varieties of Religious Experience, William James

“Which of my feelings are real? Which of the me's is me? The wild, impulsive, chaotic, energetic, and crazy one? Or the shy, withdrawn, desperate, suicidal, doomed, and tired one? Probably a bit of both, hopefully much that is neither.”

An Unquiet Mind, Kay Redfield Jamison

“It is because the public are a mass–inert, obtuse, and passive–that they need to be shaken up from time to time so that we can tell from their bear-like grunts where they are–and also where they stand. They are pretty harmless, in spite of their numbers, because they are fighting against intelligence.”

Theater Questions, Alfred Jarry

“Do not fear your enemies. The worst they can do is kill you. Do not fear friends. At worst, they may betray you. Fear those who do not care; they neither kill nor betray, but betrayal and murder exists because of their silent consent.”

Bruno Jasienski (Yasensky)

“Well in case you failed to notice,
In case you failed to see,
This is my heart bleeding before you,
This is me down on my knees.”

Foolish Games, Jewel

“I'm half alive but I feel mostly dead
I try and tell myself it'll be all right
I just shouldn't think anymore tonight.”

You Were Meant For Me, Jewel

“I'm not crazy cause I take the right pills everyday.”

Bleed American, Jimmy Eat World

“It's a lie. A kiss with opened eyes.
And she's not breathing back.
Anything but bother me.
(It takes my pain away)
Never mind these are horrid times.
Oh oh oh
I can't let it bother me.”

Pain, Jimmy Eat World

“Some of us fall by the wayside
And some of us soar to the stars
And some of us sail through our troubles
And some have to live with the scars.”

Circle of Life, Elton John Recommended by Saraya.

“I saw you dancing out the ocean
Running fast along the sand
A spirit born of earth and water
Fire flying from your hands.”

The One, Elton John

“'Are you hearing unusual sounds or voices?' the doctor asked.

'Help us, oh God, it hurts,' the boxes of cotton screamed.

'Not exactly,' I said.”

Car Crash While Hitchhiking, Denis Johnson

“To rid ourselves of our shadows - who we are - we must step into either total light or total darkness.”

Jeremy Preston Johnson