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That's a tough one and I'm assuming by putting it in this category you're asking what I do?

Around people I know I can be a grade-A royal bitch when I get into a rage. However, the rage has lessened  over the years and I've come far from the girl who threw an expensive and heavy glass pitcher across the kitchen or who would threaten her siblings or scratch them when she was angry. All things I'm not proud of but have learned not to do.

Self-injury used to be a way of controlling my anger and I couldn't even cry at a certain point or do anything but self-injure to get my feelings of anger and depression (note: not sadness) out.

Ok, so when I'm angry and I want to self-injure I usually find somebody to rant to about my anger (but not about the SI). Or I write a scathing post somewhere anonymous or away from the situation (message board not associate with the person/situation I'm upset with).

I remind myself that my dreams of private revenge on the person I'm angry at aren't going to be helped by self-injuring.

I've also talked out my anger with numerous therapists. It's taken me many, many years to let go of my anger at my father for being emotionally and verbally abusive (besides the fact that he has acted mentally unstable in the past and used to self-injure). I had so much rage in me about him and therapy helped. It didn't help in one year or three but it helped in the end. Other situations that have made me angry or full of rage... well, I'll bring it up and rant and rave and then the poison of it will be out in one session or however many it takes.