I started cutting myself two nights ago. I've never been able to because I guess I'm too vain. I don't want to look down and see the scars. I watched my boyfriend write something in his arm and it seemed like he barely had to press for blood to come. So the other night I was drunk and hating myself and I thought, "If I could only see a drop..." In all I did ten small cuts: two above one hip, three below the same hip, one on the other hip, two on the side of my knee, one on my wrist, one on my upper arm. Not a single drop of blood. Am I not pressing hard enough? So far it hasn't helped a bit.. I feel stupid for not doing it right. I tried again on my knee and the cut looks bad cuz I couldn't keep the line straight. But still no blood! It almost makes me think I'm not meant to cut but... Who knows?