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I feel trapped in my body. I want to chop all of my fat off with a saw.
It has to do with my recovering from anorexia, I know. But when I cut..it feels better, not as good as starving, though. But I am still trapped. I'm 5'5 and 120 and I wish they would let me have surgery for all the fat to be removed. How can I not feel so trapped?

It all depends on why you're so desperate to be thin. Societal pressures, familial pressures, not wanting your body to reach maturiy (i.e. wanting to make it childlike forever), etc., etc. To not feel so trapped you'd have to let go of anorexia and realize you will never attain what your mind wishes to accomplish, not because you do not have an ability to be thin (you are not fat) but because onc a certain weight is reached your mind isn't satisfied. A person with anorexia - recovering or not - does not look at their body objectively so until the anorexia is addressed and dealt with it's doubtful that you'll ever feel thin even if you drop into the double digits. How to deal with it is different for everybody.

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