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I'm currently working on not self-injuring and my motivation is that I was scared out of my wits after I was taken off a medication and experienced my symptoms of schizophrenia in a way that I never had before. I had actually disagreed with the psychiatrist's diaognosis up until then and it made me realize that I never wanted to be that helpless again. 

Not to say I haven't self-injured since then but during the time I experienced those symptoms in a way that impaired my life I self-injured perhaps two or three times. I didn't miss it. I was too terrified of the world and the people in it for it to seem like it mattered. I had been comfortable with being depressed but these symptoms I could definitely not be comfortable with. After that I didn't self-injure for a year and a few months, slipped up, another year, and then I returned to self-injuring more frequently for about six or so months.

I haven't self-injured since the Spring. I don't miss it but I've caught myself a few times thinking of it and contemplating whether or not I should. I just need to be in control and self-destruction and little regard for my mental health no longer feels like control. That's the bottom line.