"Cutting. But I have tried many other methods. Apparently I used to slap myself as a baby when I got mad-- talk about an early start-- and later I went back to it. So head banging, slapping myself (sometimes so hard that I can't hear right for a day in one ear), burning (most painful and most messy-- horrible infections), bruising myself with a hammer, scratching, scratching slowly until I take the skin off (gets really painful later), biting, sticking needles and safety pins into my skin, there must be more, but I can't remember."



"Cutting with blades, burning with matches and lighters, hitting my arms or arms or any part of my body into walls until I bruise."



"Mainly I cut. Have done some scratching (rubbing away a line of skin with the tip of a screwdriver or some equally blunt object) and tried burning a few times. Bruises are nice too. I promised myself I'd quit for the summer since I've been feeling better (59 days so far) but if I start up again I'm going to switch to hitting because the marks aren't permanent."



"Cutting- I use a razor blade to cut shallow, but bloody cuts into the insides of my forearms...mostly my left."



"Primarily cutting, but also burning, biting, wound interference, picking/scratching skin, biting nails back till they bleed, putting body parts in vise and tighten for the pain- stopping just before breakage, putting toxins in cuts such as bleach, etc., etc., etc."



"Cutting with razor blade. I also have problems with either starving myself for a few days or throwing my food up. I pinch and bite myself also."



"I used to cut and hit myself with objects (hammer, baseball bat), but now (last two months) I only punch myself."



"Razors. Tried burning about a month ago- heated up a hanger and held it in my arm over and over."



"I scratch my arms with bits of glass and stuff. And I have recently found a metal toothed comb that leaves really cool marks on my chest."



"I cut myself with a razor. Plain everyday, BIC razor. When I was at school and needed a release I would take the eraser out of the back of my pencil and grind the metal into my palm."



"My main method right now is cutting. But I still at times 'saw' with a comb, or I scratch/hit."



"I never let wounds heal, and I scratch myself with needles (I sew a lot), safety pins (some safety!), and push pins."



"I cut and burn mostly and sometimes I pull my hair out a couple of strands at a time."


"Mainly cutting, although I do all three [cutting, burning, hitting]. I do the nail thing too. I dig them into my skin."



"My main way is using my fists to beat my thighs with as much force and hatred until my arms are literally too tired to continue. I used to actually use my fists to beat my forehead when I was much younger. Thank God I realized how all too easy I could have caused brain damage to myself!! I also bite my fingernails down to the quick and in fact I use a nail clipper to rip pieces of skin from my finger tips as well."



"Mostly cutting with a razor or with a sharp butcher knife. I've tried burning a few times, but it isn't as good because there's no blood. I used to do scratching, and sometimes pinching."



"Cutting...I hit myself on stuff sometimes, I've kicked through glass to see what it would do and make it seem like an accident...when I was little I would climb up on top of really tall stuff and jump off."



"The main thing I do is burn myself with matches or the metal top of lighters. I also cut myself with razor blades once in a while. When there are other people around or no other "tools" I scratch the same place on my arms until there is no skin and they bleed. I have also hit myself--that's what I first did...
hitting myself with belts and other things, as well as just punching or smacking myself."



"Mostly I use the serrated blade on my pocket knife. Or the regular one. I haven't used razors, yet. I started last year with taking a push pin and digging it along my wrist, but that's not so effective anymore. When I'm at school I use my pen cap or my nails or whatever and scratch, my wrist, the back of my hand, whatever I can."



"I usually cut with a blade I took off of a pencil sharpener, sometimes glass, and sometimes pins. If i feel like I need to cut in school i'll take my compus from my geometry kit and go to the washroom and cut or use my nails or teeth. Sometimes when i'm really frustrated I'll pierce my skin all the way through (like my ears) with a saftey pin."

For the past six months or so it's been nothing but burning -- not with direct flames, though. I heat up bobby pins and the like, then brand myself, I guess. Before that, however, it was... Scraping, or scratching, I guess I'd say. I'd take a pair of slightly dull scissors and just scrape at my skin. And before that, it was ripping out my hair, huge patches from my scalp. I still rip out my hair -- any hair I can get to, now -- but I do my best to control that because once I start, it's incredibly difficult for me to stop.

[female, age 19, began to SI at age 16 at the latest, college student (full time)]

My main method of self-injury has always been cutting, because it implies all of the components of the highest pleasure mentioned before (making myself suffer, watching blood flow and bearing extreme pain), just the extreme pain doesn't last so long unless I'm cutting all the time. My favorite is cutting within the same wound again and again, deeper and deeper, then it's getting more painful. Then reopening it next day and repeating the same all over again. That way I don't get so many scars, of which there are many anyway though. Always used a razor or several at the same time, used a knife maybe 2-3 times. Cutting along veins/arteries for more blood preferred.

And yes, I have other method, which doesn't really imply "injury", because the result is not seen, but it brings pain nevertheless: I found many positions in which my muscles and tendons are being pulled and therefore are being stretched, and some of the positions don't require any effort or motion but can cause really strong pain. That way you can relax and concentrate on the pain completely.

Other things: piercing myself with needles of different size, sometimes leaving them inside my skin for several days. The advantage is that no real scars left if you don't leave needles inside for long. I left them once for more than a month, was too deep to be healed, was hurting all the time and then got all inflamed, and the scars are left.

Disadvantage: not so much blood.

Also took blood from the arteries using a syringe and drank it from the glass, perfect taste btw.

[female, age 18, began to think of SI at age 6 and can't remember when she began to SI, high school student]

cutting, mainly, although I'm a pyro and have done quite a bit with burning. also picking skin-- using my nails to scrape and scrape and scrape...

[female, age 17, began to SI at age 14, HS student]

Cutting with knives/razor blades. Sometimes I burn myself with matches. I find that this is sometimes a better way of hurting myself without having to explain large cuts/scabs. The small burn marks are easier to hide if I want to. Everybody that is close to me thinks that I no longer SI and that I am better.

[male, age 32, began to SI at age 28, Security]

I started by concussing myself, I then moved on to use similar methods that were used to discipline me, for example leathering myself with the buckle ended side of a belt. I also started biting, scratching, grazing myself and eventually I started to break my own bones by throwing myself into objects and down stairwells.

A short time after I had progressed to braking my bones I discovered self harm existed and became aware of using knives and an assortment of blades to both stab and cut my flesh.

I carried on to use a concoction of these methods, I also experimented with burning and scolding myself with fire, acids and boiling water, but not as often as I would pick and mix the other acts.

Since becoming aware of self harm I have indulged in starvation and over exercise as a form of self injury too, regardless of the other means I find starvation and consumption control offers me a constant fix in-between sessions.

[female, age 16, began to SI at age 6, College Student]

Cutting. When I was young I employed strange ways of depriving myself of food. I never lost too much weight, but rather became incredibly pale and sickly-looking, just malnourished. As a cutter, I started out using those small beauty scissors, now I tend to use an exacto. I still, to some extent, use deprivation of food as a form of punishment.

[female, age 20, began to SI at age 13 or (cutting very recent), College student]

Cutting is how I usually end up hurting myself. The first time I cut I used a sharp pencil...I just got gradually sharper, going to a letter opener, a pocket knife, razor blades from a disposable shaving razor, a hobby knife kit, a steak knife (my favorite), and xacto knives. Right under cutting is burning, which is usually when I'm not feeling like cleaning up after blood. I've hit myself before (I had stopped SI for about a year, and all it took was one trigger - a friend of mine died - I started punching myself in the face), tried wrist-banging (which is very helpful when I'm angry, I like to bang out the beat to an angry song when I do it).

[female, age 20, began to SI at age 15, college student]

Self injury...for me it wasn't a choice to do it as it was a choice to keep living. Cutting is breathing free. It's a place where nobody can hurt me or anything hurts me. I control alot of things around me...I don't feel a lack of control in my everyday life. I just can't let go of the inside stuff, or things that bring it all back. Nightmares, flashes, memories, anxiety,regrets,and anger/rage. I feel such rage it scares me. Cutting is containing a dam of emotion. I have so much grief and nothing can make it better...nothing. For it to be better...People that should love me...would have to when they never will.Bad things would have to be erased from time. In other words life would have to have never happened the way it did.

I want my life to be something other than a mistake..as my Mother claims, and I want to be loved for just who I am even though there are years of my life that I can't even recall. Self injury is a tool and if you've never had anyone to care about you then...it really only hurts you and that's okay if it keeps you alive to find someone who may really love you one day. My husband loves me, it's a good relationship. Do I still cut even though he love's me? Yes, why?
Because it keeps me alive so that one day somebody will really love me "again".
My children...a friend...who knows. I use to think if just one person loved me...really loved me it would be enough. I found that it's not that way. I missed out on what feels like a whole life of being loved. I am a bottomless pit of wanting love but always terrified of it. I can never be loved enough or by too many people.

I think until the people I wanted to love me do... then ...it will never be enough, and even then I may very well find that once there it may still not be enough just because of all the times they could have loved me and hurt me instead.

[female, age 30, began to SI at age 16 or younger, mom of 5 and artist]

My favourite way is by the blade. Cutting is probably the first way I tried to SI. I used to burn a lot but I stopped for some reason after a while. I also punch hard surfaces like walls, hard wooden dressers, etc. My right fist (right handed) is fucked. I've made my knuckles bleed and I'm like 95% sure my pinky knuckle is broken or dislocated or something. I've never gone to see a doctor for anything so if I did mess it up then it healed wrong. Sometimes my knuckles swell up like golf balls.

Other little things but those are the main ones.

[female, age 15, began to SI at age 13]