i have been clean for three months... well, was. i relapsed today... i was reading a book called Willow, and it is about a girl who si's, meets a hot guy, and stops. plus at the same time falls in love... WHERE IS MY PRINCE? hell, at this point i would take a peasant who is charming and treats me good... sigh... even my best friends both have guys, and i cant seem to get one. plus my dad died three years ago and my brother just had a baby. the team i am on has a supremely annoying coach, and one of my other brothers is in jail and his fiance had a baby while he was in there. i guess that just under all of this stress,plus nomal highschool drama, i cracked. i tried snapping myself with a rubberband but it doesnt work... i like to see the marks on my skin i guess.... sigh.... goodnight...