Are there any programs you can look into in your state/province/country? If your mother doesn’t want to get you help doesn’t mean you have to go without care. There are sometimes programs that will give basic psych.
A psychotherapist who is a clinical psychologist. Dr. Mancini specializes in treating borderline personality disorder. She is intensively trained in Dialectical Behavior Therapy. Ph.D. Areas of expertise are self-injury and eating disorders.