hi ive never been to this site but i was online and im a former self injurer. i began when i was 16 and ill never forget the roller coaster ride after that first slit. ive been in several inpatients. ive had stiches before to keep my skin together or i let them heal cause i dont want to be in the hospital and be committed. im 22 now and i havent physically injured myself for 4 years. i have SO much regret. i am NOT the person who i used to be. i work in retail and i can never wear short sleeves. i worked for 2 years and no one ever noticed but now i transfered to another store and people gossip and are nosey. I would of not cared what people thought at my original store but my mother worked there and i wanted to spare her the pain and shame of what i did. i want to be free and wear short sleeves or 3/4 sleeves. i have scars beginning at my wrist going all the way up my forearm. the main ones stop at where ur arm bends (elbow). I even have a scar there where ur arm bends. anyways im ok with myself. ive let that person go but its hard to be judged. people think ur crazy or evil if u've hurt urself. like what would cause someone to purposely inflict pain on themself? sigh i still cant figure out what drove me to hurt myself everyday for years. id like to get makeup to cover my scars so i can be free and not have people stick their nose in my business (co-workers and customers.) id like to know if anyone has any makeup they know of that can cover severe scars that wont transfer onto my clothes. im asian and im not tan, pretty light skinner but my scars after years of healing they're very light/pale. any advice?