Do I Ever Want To Stop...?
Sat, 2010-07-24 17:40 — CallMeWinterWith as many times as I have asked myself this question, you'd think I'd have a sure answer by now. I don't. I'm not sure if I want to stop self harming. What am I supposed to do when I stop? How will I get those feelings back, the feelings of release, without harming? What else is there? But on the other hand, I know that I am destroying my arm, hips, stomach, and legs. I know that it is not good for me. I know that I will have these embarrassing scars forever, and I know that I will always be making up excuses for cuts, scars, and burns. I don't like the questions, but I love the pain. I don't like the scars, but I love the cuts. What to do when you find yourself ripped in half by your own devices?
madness
Sat, 2010-06-19 18:29 — MANDEAbsolutely. When I am feeling down enough to cut, it is a horrible place to be. I dont' like being in that place, nor do I like to see others in that black space. I wish for all people to know that they are loved enough that they do not have to self injure, but understand as I was recently at that place. Embarrassing too when you work in a professional environment, and others can see what you have done. It makes me sad, but it does seem to keep a balance between the inside pain and the outside pain.
maybe for social reasons
Fri, 2010-06-04 08:34 — AnonymousOnly because I know based off of personal experiences that self-injurers face prejudice in society. It has a huge role in first impressions. If I'm going for a job interview do I want my potential employer to notice that long scar running down my forearm? Of course not, he'll think I'm mentally unstable and won't hire me. I know those who have been fired for being caught with SI. This goes for any new person/stranger, potential friends/acquaintances. People are scared of what they don't understand, especially anything close to death. And I'm not interested in wearing long sleeves for the rest of my life (as I live in a hot state). But I'm not planning to stop even though society won't accept it. I don't hate myself for what I do, I won't let other people's fear affect me. But I definitely won't let my SI hinder my survival in this world...since the purpose of me hurting myself is to help me survive life anyways.
Yes
Fri, 2010-05-28 15:12 — empathetical piecesSo fucking bad! I have been SI'ing for 3 years and 8 months. I have been trying to stop for 3 years. It has been 6 weeks since I last cut, but I have done other SI. I have relapsed after 6 months before though. I want to stop! I have done a lot to try to stop, and anything else is welcome.
... Help Me?
Fri, 2010-05-07 04:45 — AnonymousYes, i want to stop. i need to stop. it's totally putting me off track, i can't where my shorts or any kind of short sleeved top. People see my scars and look at them asif there complete alien, look at me, then look away. Almost like they know what i'm doing. they know i need help. but they genrally cannot be bovered with me. I do my best to cover them, foundation, hoodys the lot. But i don't want to have to hide anything anymore. I need and want help. If anyone knows anyone i can go see please share it with me, i'll really appreciate it. Thanks.
Do You Ever Want To Stop Hurting Yourself?
Mon, 2010-04-26 11:04 — NagizumaI think... Yes.
I'm destroying my arm, and sometimes I feel bad...
I'm not regreting my scars, but when the burning stuff started, my arm got a lot worse.
Sometimes I think: "What am I going to do with my rage later??? If I fall in SI again?" but I'm going to treat it, and I wish I can beat it.
But sometimes... I don't want to... Because "shouting through the skin" is just so... I can't explain it... But I do want to quit. People will reject me more and more with the number of scars increasing, and it may be another way to fall more and even more...
To bleed forever....
Wed, 2010-04-07 16:42 — AnonymousTruly, honestly? I've never told anyone this and after I write this I will never open my mouth on this subject again, but... No. I don't. For me, I don't see anything wrong with it. I deserve all of the hell that comes with cutting. I don't want to stop. I would be perfectly content to cut whenever I wanted to, where ever on my body I wanted to. I dream of one day being able to go into a store and buy boxes of razors.... x-acto knifes, steak knives... Of being able to have broken glass to injure with... I would add all of them to my little white box of cutting implements... but the box would get bigger and bigger.... I'd have my choice of what would get the job done best, if I wanted to pattern, grid, do straight lines, or just gash through my skin... My arms are pulsing writing this, my veins are calling to me... It's horrible, or so people tell me, that I cut, and I suppose even worse that I don't want to stop. But I don't, I just don't.
[female, age 18, began to SI at age 16]
Fri, 2009-04-03 23:34 — GabrielleYes and no...I know I need to, because I don't want to have to put my life on hold to do something about it- I am going to college now and that is what I want to be doing, and I'm afraid that if I don't stop I might jeopardize that. But I feel like I'm not ready, not capable of stopping yet."
