Fri, 2009-04-03 22:34 — GabriellePrinter-friendly version
A good friend of mine SIed for years, but says she's more or less stopped. Not willingly, but her father threatened to kick her out of the house and completely cut off her anti-depressant medications, which would make her even worse. She's gone from carving deep words on her arms to just scraping her wrists against paper towel and toilet paper dispensers. When I first learned she SIed, it made me feel so much better. I knew it wasn't good for her, and I honestly tried to get her to stop -- I succeeded partially, as she cut herself less frequently and less deeply until I graduated, at least -- but it was so good to know that I wasn't crazy, I wasn't the only person in the world hurting myself.
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Self-harm
An old friend of mine started self-harm when she was about 11/12 and has been doing it on and off and she's 14 now. my best friend used to self ham but stopped a few months ago. I cut with her once but that was to make us 'blood sisters' it sounds stupid and reckless but it was just an idea. I have just started recently but I have tried before though. It took me a while to understand why my two friends did what they did but I never tried to stop them. They saw it as a coping method but also for one of them it was for the attention she wanted.
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Two others
There was a couple of kids at my school a while back, a boy and a girl. One day the boy announced he was trying to 'Go Goth' and carved the word 'Help' into his arm. He would proudly display it to us whenever he could, but would hide it from the teachers by wearing a sweat band. It was well known he had several emotional problems, and I knew he was cutting not so much to get our attention but to express the fact that something was wrong and he wanted us to help him through it. He kept saying we should all 'Go Goth' with him. A part of me wanted to more than anything. I had been secretly harming myself for about two years and I was amazed at his honestly and enticed by the feeling of finally being understood. The girl was enticed too, not for the reasons I was, but because she wanted some of the attention he was getting. She brought in all these pins in a case as if she was some kind of pro and would openly cut herself till someone would say something to her. then she would just smile. She made me feel ashamed, like because I cut too I was just seeking attention. I wasn't. I made every effort to hide what i was doing from my peers and never told a soul about it. Both the boy and the girl were kicked out of school. I saw the girl a few months ago and she's really grown up. I never saw the boy again. A mutual friend of ours let me see a letter he had written her. He attempted suicide at least once and had gotten in to several physical relationships that he deeply regretted. He was also still hurting himself. Sometimes I wonder if I made the right choice in keeping silent.
yes and no
My friend kim does but she doesn't make me do it or make me want to do it. When i started i didn't even know she did it. i found out one day when i saw eraser burn marks on her arms. I know what they look like because thats what i started doing first. but when i asked her about it she told me then i told her about mine.
That's how it was for my friend too
Me and my friend Kathleen had both started cutting in middle school. In sophomore year, I saw one of her scars and asked, she denied it at first, but then I rolled up my sleeve. She's stopped now, but I'm still unfortunately cutting :(
Yes...
I have a good friend who self-injured... I was so worried about her. We talked to eachother about our depression, and how we couldn't talk to anyone, let alone our parents. She introduced me to cutting. She actually brought a razor blade to school to give me. I actually turned it in to the school counselor... Secretly, I was just starting to cut. I kept on encouraging her to get help, and to try and stop. "you can find relief in a better way", I told her. Thankfully, because of me, she has stopped, and got help from her parents. I can't stop though. I guess I am truly the one with the problems. I'm such a hypocrite.
It is sad to me
My best friend started in middle school. She is controling it now better then before, but as the years progressed she found out I did it too. It is scary now that i look back it. In high school you would think girls would have sleep overs where they would watch movies and pain their nails. Not me and her. We'd cut in front of each other. It is very... depressing thinking back on it...
~ Even Though No One is Looking She is Falling Apart ~
My girlfriend
My girlfriend used to SI. I guess that was where the idea came from. She doesn't any more, but I still do, and she doesn't know. She thinks I've stopped, and I hope to keep it that way. And I think my cousin SI's too. But she doesn't take it seriously. She's more.. proud of it, and showed off her cut to me. I suppose there's also a good side to how relaxed she seemed about it, I told her what I did (reluctantly) and she seemed laid-back about it. I just hope she can keep a secret, haha.
Do you know anybody else who self-injures?
Quite a few of my friends do. That is how I got the 'idea' to do it. At the moment I know about 4 people who do it/have done it.
I know a few people.
My friends Bri, Juilia, and danielle do. SO does my supposed friend cassie, as well as my ex-boyfriend/kinda boyfriend Brad... My former bestfriend too.
The former bestfriend originally gave me the idea... I never thought I'd do it myself, but one day I was just sick of crying and I scratched at my wrist with a pen-clip...
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Too many.
I fear for Brogans life most of the time, he is most precious out of everyone to me, Tia used to but swears she stopped, the twins Chris and Gabe both do but they shun me because I struggle with other things as well, Hailee burns herself with incense to try to burn away the pain, Chaz does, but that's no surprise, Shawn does, she carves shapes, Britney does but doesn't acknowledge the fact that she does.
Here I thought I was a freak. The way my sister looks at me, I think I still am. She has no idea the thoughts that go through my head, or the scars I've inflicted since she last saw me.
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