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[female, age 18, began to think of SI at age 6 and can't remember when she began to SI, high school student]

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My husband knows it, and he doesn't appreciate it, getting all excited seeing the scars. And he was the reason I stopped it, and I promised that I'd never do it again. But I am still haunted by those visions, and I still have the strong desire to do it again, I think it will never go away, but I try to keep it under control.\n\nI told it to some random internet persons as well, just so, it's not really worth mentioning.

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[female, age 18, began to think of SI at age 6 and can't remember when she began to SI, high school student]
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Gabrielle For Self-Injurers - In Their Own Words published by 3 years ago ()

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Yeah my counsellor. She's the

2 years () (Permalink)

Yeah my counsellor. She's the only person who knows (i hope).. and the only person i ever plan to know. Except maybe when i sort myself out, i would tell people if they asked. But i would never ever tell my family.

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[female, age 17, began to SI at age 13]

2 years () (Permalink)

My cousin was the first person to find out in junior high, but she didn't really know what to do or say about it, plus i felt like it was too complicated for her to understand, which might have just been an excuse for me to prevent her from understanding. I didn't even really understand, I just liked that I finally found something I could call my own, and that I had control over who would see it or not. She thinks I haven't done it since junior high/early high school, and I don't want to tell her that I still do sometimes. I'm afraid she'll tell my parents, and they have they're own problems and compulsive behaviours that they can't even deal with.
My boyfriend is the only person who currently knows, all he says is that it brings him to tears to think of me hurting myself, that it's not out of pity but out of love. I feel like a freak to keep wanting to do it when there is so much love around me, I feel like I have all these wonderful opportunities coming at me, giving me so many chances to leave this thing behind, but I keep holding on to it. Even when I think to myself "I don't need to anymore, I don't want to anymore" something in the back of my mind says "You don't need to right NOW, but if there comes a time when you can't handle the ways of life, it's always there for you" - the blade is there when people aren't.

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