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I have only ever told peopled when thy have asked or enquired. And even then I give as little information, without avoiding the question, as possible and act indifferent to the subject before finding a tangent to break out onto.\n\nMy mother told me I was a selfish nasty little girl when she saw I had scars, she is convinced I have self harmed to try and imply to the neighbors that she is a bad mother.\n\nMy closest friend didn't react at all, her attitude is "each to their own".\n\nMost people stare at the scar tissue I have on my arms just because you cannot ignore it, the amount and size of the scaring makes it nearly impossible to not notice. \n\nMy mothers views on the scar tissue I bare irritate me, her self indulgence and ignorance annoy me. To consider I have spent ten years self mutilating to try and imply she is a bad mother to the neighbors is, in my opinion, slightly self obsessed.\n\nI respect how my friend reacted, or rather how she didn't react... self harm is something I have to conquer myself, she didn't try to discourage me, or threaten to tell anyone, she didn't use the "Oh my god my friend hurts herself!" card to gain attention or anything... she just accepted me and that what I do.\n\nAnd as for those who stare or whisper about the scars I carry, so be it, I'm not going to become upset about their ignorance, if it causes them a few minutes of pleasure to stare or whisper about my scars at least they serve a purpose and make somebody happy.