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[female, age 14, began to SI at age 11, High School student]

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Before, I am overwhelmed with very strong feeling of depression, anger, sadness, or self-loathing. I am out of hand, probably crying, and unable to keep all the feeling inside me anymore. During the self-injury, I began to feel rushed, and eager to cut deep and bleed before I am caught. However I definitely have began the calming cycle already, so I began to turn inward, enjoying the pain and relief it brings me. After I self injure, I am in a state of numbness, and tranquility. I have already completel turned inward, focusing all my attention on the pain and blood, and have began to rest inside myself. All feelings of anger, depression and self-loathing have minimized, if not disappeared.

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[female, age 14, began to SI at age 11, High School student]
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Gabrielle For Self-Injurers - In Their Own Words published by 3 years ago ()

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Before I cut... I am feeling horrible whether it is sadness, anger, boredom, and stress... I act out on negative emotions of the sort... In the act I am numb... It is my ectasy... for a split second i feel what I call heaven... the sting could almost be a passion's flame... Then after I want to do it again... That doesn't last long at all... The after effects are worse... At first I felt okay after, but then as the addiction got worse so did the after effects... At times I would go into panic attack as I spent hours scrubbing my very blood out of my clothes crying... The after effects are the worst part... Sometimes it makes hurting myself not worth it ... but only sometimes....

~ Even Though No One is Looking She is Falling Apart ~

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