Why do I do it...?
Tue, 2010-08-17 15:29 — MyukiI cut myself because, mainly, it gives me a sense of control over my life. But also because i slightly enjoy the pain. I hav ea problem called hyperacusis, its where your hearing is really good and you are sensitive to sounds and get annoyed bye them easily. Sometimes it gets so bad I breakdown, or get sick. The next reason is my brother. He never leaves me alone, he is always pestering me, touching me(not in a abusive way) and he just doesnt leave me alone, he is horrible to me, and my parents. When i try to get him to leave me alone, it doesnt do anything, he's older and much bigger than me, so cutting makes me feel in control of all that. In my opinion I am pathetic...
Why I Self-Injure
Sun, 2010-07-25 17:30 — XxPandoraxXThere is one main reason that ties everything. Feeling Abandoned. I have a best friend, lets call her Pheobe. Pheobe has been my friend for three years now. We didi everything together. When I was in 7th Grade I started feeling like Pheobe was drifting away. It was just a feeling though. One weekend my friends and I were going to the mall. I wauted outside my house for a long time and they never showed. It turns out they forgot me. After then Pheobe never made plans with me. I was always last to know about anything. Another weekend I was sleeping over Pheobe's house. She had fallen asleep and I was watching T.V. I came across a hard cover book I opened it and began reading. I was a page about her life. Then I got to a line that read "[Pandora] is not a real friend to me anymore. We have grown distant" At this point my worst fear had come true. Pheobe did not want me anymore. She got bored of me. A fake best friend. That is why I cut.
Why Do I Do It?
Wed, 2010-07-07 23:37 — Sydney697Why Do I Do It....?
A pretty easy question to answer... I do it because I like to do it. Whenever I do it, I get an overwhelming feeling of happiness. I listen to some of my favorite music whenever I do it and it is fun! I love cutting, until I am confronted with people who don't approve. Then I just get really angry becaasue they tell me not to do it. They tell me to stop doing something that I love to do and it is some of the few things that make me VERY happy in life. It's a great feeling.
Why not?
Mon, 2010-06-21 21:44 — AnonymousI started cutting as an expriment to test it out. One of my friends had cut herself and I always used to wonder, "Why would someone do that to themself?" But that started to get me thinking if it would really help keep the pain at bay. I always figured that if I got caught for cutting, and that if I were taken to a therapist, that I would use it as a jumping point and tell people that my mother abuses me. That it would get that out of the open, I would be taken away, and I wouldn't need it anymore. But I do need it, so much so it sends me into panic attacks thinking that I will be caught, and will have to stop. I now cut when I am sad, when I feel unwanted, but mostly when I get frustrated, or angry. I hate that I do it, which usually leads to more cutting. One of my friends knows I cut, and she doesn't care, or tried to stop me. My parents both have their suspicions but don't bring it up. If no one cares if I do it, then why is it a problem, why should I stop?
Truthfully,
Sun, 2010-06-20 09:24 — AnonymousI never really sat down and thought about why I cut. But now that I think back on every time I did cut, it was either because I felt like I needed punishment (that's when I'd use a dull knife and cut over and over until it hurt) or when I had too many things on my mind/ too many emotions I was feeling and I just needed to get them out somehow, or forget them somehow. When I bleed I feel like all the shit I feel leaves with the blood, at least for a while.
Right Now
Fri, 2010-06-04 09:34 — AnonymousI just do it to survive, I'm not a ritual self-injurer. It's only a preventative measure. Usually when I SI I'm very close to attempting to kill myself. I cause a smaller act of violence on my body to disperse the escalating emotions which will lead to suicide. I know the more intense my emotions are the more damage I do to my body. So in a sense hurting myself controls my emotions. It doesn't happen very often anymore. I feel like I have control now, but occassionally they come up again and I'm overwhelmed by the strength of it and cave in again to hurting myself. Read more »
Distraction.
Fri, 2010-05-28 16:57 — AnonymousI use self-injury as this...distraction. When you scratch just right, everything just goes away from your mind. Every single thing. I don't think about the things that led me to hurt myself in the first place. I think about, woah, gotta go clean this up, and I have to cover it. Which is also bad, because it adds a bit of stress to my life knowing that I have to cover them up. It's better than what I was thinking before though.
