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Yes I have and I am glad that I did. When I was 13 I first began to cut and starve myself. It took me almost 2 years to be able to tell a friend. Once I told her and A couple other girls on my volleyball team I felt better. I was suprised at their support and willingness to help me. It felt so good and they gave me the confidence to tell and adult. The next day I did and it was the best thing I have ever done. Slowly and surely with the help of this adult I am beging to build up my self confidence stop cutting and other self distructive behaviors. It is really amazing what a good support system can do. It may have taken almost 14 years to feel like I am worth something but I am glad that I finally have. TElling someone is one of the hardest thing I have ever done. Almost harder than the actual act but it is the best thing that I could ever do. It is amazing how much more life it has given me now that I feel free from this. I am still hopeing to finally make day 100 but when I do it will be amazing.

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[female, age 15, began to SI at 13, high school student]
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pandoramagick pandoramagick

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i started when i was 5 years old , and this year i turn 35. i feel like a veteran , but still i no solid understanding. i used to cut , i lost count of stitches , and visits to the doctor or emergency room. the funny thing is that no one ever really questioned my excuses , and accepted me as awfully clumsy. now i burn , and i cringe to admit that i love it. contrary to that rush of cutting , burning gives me peace. i feel vibrations through me once ive done it. the problem is that i have trouble in burning a small area. everytime i burn it gets bigger. and it delights me. its almost a feeling of power , and peaceful numbness.

can anyone help me understand the difference between cutting and burning , and how to overcome this addiction. i need the perspective of a self injurer , no matter how much other people try , they dont understand us.

yes , i am seeing a therapist and she is wonderful , but as i said  there is a difference.

my family does know , but they choose to ignore it.

thanks

pandoramagick

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