I started cutting about a year ago, and scratching, but then i stopped, and things got better.
But for about a couple months, i started cutting again. Only my best friend knows. She knows i dont cut too deep, and its not enought to kill me. I try my hardest not to do it. But all day i have urges to cut. An i'm strangley mesmerised by the marks cutting makes, and blood. i can stare at my arm for ages.
Im really trying to stop. Because sooner or later someone is gonna find out, someone who is gonna make me see help.
Which is what i dont want. I just dont trust adults.
start cutting again. I was doing pretty good. Till about a month ago when i came home from school and found my mother just laying there. she wasnt responding. she would hurt herself too but she would burn herself or not let wounds heal properly. So since my mother has been in the hospital ive been so stressed and been feeling the urge to cut myself. I live with my aunt now and i know i'll have to start cutting other places besides my arms or else she will notice but i would really rather just not cut but i cant fight the urge anymore. Here's my email if anyone can help me. mia.the_corrupted@yahoo.com
I been cutting for 6 yrs now......as th yrs go on the cuts seem to get deeper and deeper and longer and longer. I seem to find anywhere I can to cut on the body where it's the easiest to hide. The most I've had at time and on the arm would be 61 cuts. I'm not proud of what I do but it is the one of the most addicting thing I've experience. I can't stop thinking about let alone the urge for a cut is beyond belief strongg I love doing it.
I guess watching myself bleed just something about it is mesmerizing and makes me feel alive. And if I can't get my hands on a razor ill bite till I bleed and my hands are shaking something about the marks just mesmerizes me too I think I'm just weird.
I started cutting myself last yet (in seventh grade) and stopped over the summer but it got ALOT worse when I started again. I have tried burning, bulimia and was anorexic for a little while. But all I do now is cutting. I use a razor or small steak knife or whatever else I can get my hands onto at the time. I carry a safety pin around with me just incase. Nobody has found out but I told a few friends, most of which SI too. I cut anywhere I can or is convienant at the time. I cut deep enough that it takes a very long time for it to stop bleeding. Ever since I started again, I got addicted.
I used to just scratch myself with pins, and occasionally I would burn myself. For a while I took a pretty long hiatus from hurting myself, but I was always really drawn back to it and I would have to really fight myself not to.
Now I've began using the blade from a pencil sharpener to cut my upper left arm. I'd never used a blade before, and I was surprised by how easy and relaxing it was once I tried it.
I cut, burn, and beat myself. I am fascinated with the sight of my own blood. I also pick on all of my wounds. I have a cigarette burn on my arm that has been trying to heal for over a month now. One day I'll learn my lesson.
I cut my thighs and hips after my cuts on my arms were noticed. But on a day to day basis I also pull my hair...not just at one spot. Anyway, my hairdresser noticed with the remark "oh, baby hair!'....new growth...made me cringe.
Cut myself....but i also slap a lot and punch....and use objects to hit myself like rulers, sticks and belts....i've wanted to break my bones with a hammer but i couldnt get the hammer....i bite myself...the worst was last night....
i cut myself. I tend to break down and resort back to the thing that makes me feel better about life. i am trying to stop and everyone says you just cut for attention if i was cutting for attention i would stand in a crownded room and scream on the top of my lungs i cut! but i stay quite in my room with a razor yup im cutting for attention my friend.
I don't like blood. Cutting is out. Burning my fingers seems to be my outlet, that and tattoos. Just found this site so I am off to try and learn a bit more about myself in the process.
i usually cut. i dont know why, i just like the way it looks. i pull my hair sometimes. as a kid i used to hit myself when i was really mad, and i still do sometimes. i bite my nails and pierce myself.
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Cutting :/
I started cutting about a year ago, and scratching, but then i stopped, and things got better.
But for about a couple months, i started cutting again. Only my best friend knows. She knows i dont cut too deep, and its not enought to kill me. I try my hardest not to do it. But all day i have urges to cut. An i'm strangley mesmerised by the marks cutting makes, and blood. i can stare at my arm for ages.
Im really trying to stop. Because sooner or later someone is gonna find out, someone who is gonna make me see help.
Which is what i dont want. I just dont trust adults.
im trying not to....
start cutting again. I was doing pretty good. Till about a month ago when i came home from school and found my mother just laying there. she wasnt responding. she would hurt herself too but she would burn herself or not let wounds heal properly. So since my mother has been in the hospital ive been so stressed and been feeling the urge to cut myself. I live with my aunt now and i know i'll have to start cutting other places besides my arms or else she will notice but i would really rather just not cut but i cant fight the urge anymore. Here's my email if anyone can help me. mia.the_corrupted@yahoo.com
I cut....
I been cutting for 6 yrs now......as th yrs go on the cuts seem to get deeper and deeper and longer and longer. I seem to find anywhere I can to cut on the body where it's the easiest to hide. The most I've had at time and on the arm would be 61 cuts. I'm not proud of what I do but it is the one of the most addicting thing I've experience. I can't stop thinking about let alone the urge for a cut is beyond belief strongg I love doing it.
I cut
I guess watching myself bleed just something about it is mesmerizing and makes me feel alive. And if I can't get my hands on a razor ill bite till I bleed and my hands are shaking something about the marks just mesmerizes me too I think I'm just weird.
I cut but also
Stand in the ice cold water of my shower until my lips turn blue and I can't breathe.
cut...
I mostly cut, I pull my hair, and dont let wounds heal right...
Don't ignore the pain in your heart, it only makes it worst.....
Cutter
I started cutting myself last yet (in seventh grade) and stopped over the summer but it got ALOT worse when I started again. I have tried burning, bulimia and was anorexic for a little while. But all I do now is cutting. I use a razor or small steak knife or whatever else I can get my hands onto at the time. I carry a safety pin around with me just incase. Nobody has found out but I told a few friends, most of which SI too. I cut anywhere I can or is convienant at the time. I cut deep enough that it takes a very long time for it to stop bleeding. Ever since I started again, I got addicted.
cut
i cut very deep, i don't care whether i burst my veins again, i'm running out of skin. Help me.
=)
I used to feel that way as well..
If you ever want to talk, my mail is hege_eidsheim@hotmail.com.. talking is the only way I know to help.. =/
=)
I used...
I used to just scratch myself with pins, and occasionally I would burn myself. For a while I took a pretty long hiatus from hurting myself, but I was always really drawn back to it and I would have to really fight myself not to.
Now I've began using the blade from a pencil sharpener to cut my upper left arm. I'd never used a blade before, and I was surprised by how easy and relaxing it was once I tried it.
Methods of Mayhem
I cut, burn, and beat myself. I am fascinated with the sight of my own blood. I also pick on all of my wounds. I have a cigarette burn on my arm that has been trying to heal for over a month now. One day I'll learn my lesson.
I cut.
But i've hit myself before too.When i was kid i would bite myself.
I cut my thighs and hips
I cut my thighs and hips after my cuts on my arms were noticed. But on a day to day basis I also pull my hair...not just at one spot. Anyway, my hairdresser noticed with the remark "oh, baby hair!'....new growth...made me cringe.
Tian
I...
Cut myself....but i also slap a lot and punch....and use objects to hit myself like rulers, sticks and belts....i've wanted to break my bones with a hammer but i couldnt get the hammer....i bite myself...the worst was last night....
cutter
i cut myself. I tend to break down and resort back to the thing that makes me feel better about life. i am trying to stop and everyone says you just cut for attention if i was cutting for attention i would stand in a crownded room and scream on the top of my lungs i cut! but i stay quite in my room with a razor yup im cutting for attention my friend.
pins
I'm pretty handy with a saftey pin. Dragging it across skin. It feels a lot like tattoos.
Burning
I don't like blood. Cutting is out. Burning my fingers seems to be my outlet, that and tattoos. Just found this site so I am off to try and learn a bit more about myself in the process.
What.....
i usually cut. i dont know why, i just like the way it looks. i pull my hair sometimes. as a kid i used to hit myself when i was really mad, and i still do sometimes. i bite my nails and pierce myself.
captainshay
I cut using a shaving safety
I cut using a shaving safety razor. I keep picking the scabs on my latest cut.