I harm myself alot cut, burn, bit my lips nailss and skin around in, hair pull, hittig ,bruising, friction urns, dig saqfety pins in my skin , stab myself ... I PRETTY MUCH DO anything you can thik of, pills.... I do it veryy often and i feell ii need itt the feelingg i get during it before and after changes and makee me feel better for abit and i NEED IT !!
i usually cut on my shoulders and wear large tshirts or longsleeves to cover them up.sometimes i cut my stomach hit myself on my stomach or right above my knees,pull my hair,and bite myself or something hard. i also get things like scarves or cords and wrap them around my neck until i have to let go.i really need and want help!but i dont have anyone who i can tell who wont be pissed and hate me.
Its strange how creative we all are. One of my favorite things to do is create a ladder of safety pins up my arms and legs and sometimes on my stomach, it can take up to hours at a time to do
I started scratching and cutting when i was 11. after a year i started to bite myself, and now i've started to hit my head repeatedly with heavy books. I'm 13 years old now. when i self-injure, first i bite, then i hit, then i cut it very deep into my flesh. My classmates are afraid of me. I don't understand why i put myself in such a lot of pain.
Help me. Please.
hey i just wanna say that i can help people who r cutting themselves. if u believe in God, maybe He can help. i'm giving out these fliers w/ songs on them that help people who are self-injurers. if u have an email then send me a message at joeyg1994@yahoo.com and i'll send u a copy of the fliers. hope i'm helping.
there is a lot on that list I do like the usual cutting , bruising, burning and messing with wound healing but then there's pins and needles, biting, pinching, walking for miles bare footed, dripping hot wax upon my skin which feels awesome one of my fave things to do, hitting walls, I use to sew but have since stopped but I also staple myself by getting an ordinary office stapler and opening it up and putting it against my skin normally on lower left arm and pressing it down as if stapling paper. As some one on this site once said: there is nothing more addictive then a wound self inflicted
now there is alot on this list i know i do. i cut, bruise, interfer with healing, scratch, pull hair, hit, puncturing, gauging ears, tattoos, excessive piercings [14]. i also engage in BDSM, so i get into choking, whipping, ripping tape off my skin, rope burns on my wrists. i used to rub my knees and elbows on carpet to get carpet burn.
I am addicted to putting myself in situations where I will have very high risk sexual liasions. I visit gay saunas and engage in both passive and active sexual activities, mostly anonymous in dark areas with unknown partners and without protection. I will lie in dark rooms and cubicles and allow any partner to use my body.
I also visit public toilets and other gay cruising areas to find, and engage in unprotected sexual behaviour with, any willing partners.
I regularly have to have treatment for sexually transmitted diseases, so far I am HIV-, but I know it is only a matter of time before I catch it. I also think that if a partner told me he was HIV+ I would still allow him to have sex with me.
I started off by punching my head, and thighs when I was younger. I just figured I was really frustrated and had anger issues. This was the method I used until 18.
At 18 I started cutting, while never fully letting go of the punching.
Now, at 22, I burn myself as well. Lately life has just been so difficult that I've found myself creating an SI chain. Start with hitting, then cut, and then burn repeatedly.
I have divulged in a multitude of ways to harm myself including: deep tissue cutting(down to muscle/bone tissue), overdosing on medications, breaking my arm, elbow, and leg...at different points in my life. I have injected ,with a needle, substances such as medications, hand cleansers, and saline to cause infection in the area of injection. I do the usual cutting on my arms and ankles. I have burned myself with a bottle of dust spray for keyboards, turned upside down it freezes. I have been in the hospital over 75 times in the last 10 years due to most of these injuries. I tried taking care of all injuries except, OD's on my own. However, most landed me in regular hospital with a sitter in the room watching my every move, then I was carted off to a mental hospital. Even though i came up with excuses for every injury: tripped over cat, fell off ladder putting up xmas lights, missed one of the steps in my grandmothers garage etc. the hospital would catch on sooner or later. My brother who is 7 years older than me, just calls me a big faker. My grandmother doesn't have a clue what is wrong with me.
I have been put on medications to help with the urges, thoughts of suicide, and I seem to be doing a lot better now than before. I hope they work, cause right now I would love to be with my mom, who passed away 10 years ago.
I was scratching and cutting around twelve, then when that got obvious I start pulling my hair out to the bleeding point, and punching myself in the stomach, head or thighs. I still cut, and do a combination of cutting, hair-pulling, hitting, and when I'm in public I snap a rubber band on my wrist until I'm home.
schools are working so hard to make sure there aren't any knives in our backpacks, but they forgot something that works even better at cutting and it's found in every classroom. paperclips. i use them to cut myself. thin ones work better than thick ones. i stole at least 20 by now.
Hi Anonymous, Your'e story or blog I guess you would call it, really touched me deeply. I'm not sure what tragedy in your life must have occured to make you want to sew your body. I can only imagine that it must have been something terrible. I am not a cutter or anything like that but, I have felt some deep dark depression which could have lead me to do that or worse, mostly brought on by my dad, step mom,previous school and job experiences. I just wanted you to know that someone does care about you. Even if you don't think anyone cares, Jesus does. I am not a Pastor, though I hope to be one day. Before I really gave my life to Jesus and started pursuing a relationship with him I was constantly on edge and depressed and had a lot built up rage and anger and unforgiveness When I gave my life to Jesus and started forgiving those I had a grudge against for so long I finally had inner peace and it no longer matters to me what any one thinks of me. I know some people who really love me, but I also know some people who really can't stand me and it bothers me not. If you give your life to Jesus and accept him as your Savior, you may still need to seek out help which is o.k. and you should not feel ashamed about doing that. I just wanted to let you know Jesus loves you more than anyone else ever could, because he is only love. It's not about being religious, Jesus wants to have a personal relationship with you. I just wanted you to know that you are not alone and that there is help out there. You don't have to stay depressed or continue sewing your body. The Holy Bible says... Those who seek the Lord shall not lack any good thing ( Psalm34 v.11). Remember that Jesus came to bind up the broken hearted and gives all his children a future. You are a Precious child of God. Jesus died, so you don't have to, he loves you very much. remember there is so much to live for and don't let anyone old you back. I will be praying for you. God bless you, Bill Cule.
To the person that sews your arm, I am deeply sorry and I want you to know that you aren't alone but to Bill Cule, God has never done anything positive for me, He has never helped me in any way shape or form. I grew up a strong Christian but when I started cutting I asked for forgiveness and that I be able to overcome this challenge, I prayed many times for Him to heal my families wounds and the wounds of my own, but I have never seen or experienced anything to say that there is a loving God or that this Jesus loves me, because the more I prayed the farther down I fell, and boy did I fall far, and I am still falling, all thanks to God.
you say you don't care and the others don't care. I challenge you that you do care because if you didn't you wouldn't self mutilate. I say this because I've been there. You are a very special and loveble person who deserves a lot of care from others and yourself.
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I harm myself alot cut, burn, bit my lips nailss and skin around in, hair pull, hittig ,bruising, friction urns, dig saqfety pins in my skin , stab myself ... I PRETTY MUCH DO anything you can thik of, pills.... I do it veryy often and i feell ii need itt the feelingg i get during it before and after changes and makee me feel better for abit and i NEED IT !!
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i usually cut on my shoulders and wear large tshirts or longsleeves to cover them up.sometimes i cut my stomach hit myself on my stomach or right above my knees,pull my hair,and bite myself or something hard. i also get things like scarves or cords and wrap them around my neck until i have to let go.i really need and want help!but i dont have anyone who i can tell who wont be pissed and hate me.
go to teenlineonline.org they
go to teenlineonline.org they will chat with you and not judge you it is what i do.
its strange how creative we all are
Its strange how creative we all are. One of my favorite things to do is create a ladder of safety pins up my arms and legs and sometimes on my stomach, it can take up to hours at a time to do
I don't understand
I started scratching and cutting when i was 11. after a year i started to bite myself, and now i've started to hit my head repeatedly with heavy books. I'm 13 years old now. when i self-injure, first i bite, then i hit, then i cut it very deep into my flesh. My classmates are afraid of me. I don't understand why i put myself in such a lot of pain.
Help me. Please.
do u want help?
hey i just wanna say that i can help people who r cutting themselves. if u believe in God, maybe He can help. i'm giving out these fliers w/ songs on them that help people who are self-injurers. if u have an email then send me a message at joeyg1994@yahoo.com and i'll send u a copy of the fliers. hope i'm helping.
wow
there is a lot on that list I do like the usual cutting , bruising, burning and messing with wound healing but then there's pins and needles, biting, pinching, walking for miles bare footed, dripping hot wax upon my skin which feels awesome one of my fave things to do, hitting walls, I use to sew but have since stopped but I also staple myself by getting an ordinary office stapler and opening it up and putting it against my skin normally on lower left arm and pressing it down as if stapling paper. As some one on this site once said: there is nothing more addictive then a wound self inflicted
Hmm...
now there is alot on this list i know i do. i cut, bruise, interfer with healing, scratch, pull hair, hit, puncturing, gauging ears, tattoos, excessive piercings [14]. i also engage in BDSM, so i get into choking, whipping, ripping tape off my skin, rope burns on my wrists. i used to rub my knees and elbows on carpet to get carpet burn.
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Risky Sexual Behaviour
I am addicted to putting myself in situations where I will have very high risk sexual liasions. I visit gay saunas and engage in both passive and active sexual activities, mostly anonymous in dark areas with unknown partners and without protection. I will lie in dark rooms and cubicles and allow any partner to use my body.
I also visit public toilets and other gay cruising areas to find, and engage in unprotected sexual behaviour with, any willing partners.
I regularly have to have treatment for sexually transmitted diseases, so far I am HIV-, but I know it is only a matter of time before I catch it. I also think that if a partner told me he was HIV+ I would still allow him to have sex with me.
Rik
A combination
I started off by punching my head, and thighs when I was younger. I just figured I was really frustrated and had anger issues. This was the method I used until 18.
At 18 I started cutting, while never fully letting go of the punching.
Now, at 22, I burn myself as well.
Lately life has just been so difficult that I've found myself creating an SI chain. Start with hitting, then cut, and then burn repeatedly.
Bad Habits!
I have divulged in a multitude of ways to harm myself including: deep tissue cutting(down to muscle/bone tissue), overdosing on medications, breaking my arm, elbow, and leg...at different points in my life. I have injected ,with a needle, substances such as medications, hand cleansers, and saline to cause infection in the area of injection. I do the usual cutting on my arms and ankles. I have burned myself with a bottle of dust spray for keyboards, turned upside down it freezes. I have been in the hospital over 75 times in the last 10 years due to most of these injuries. I tried taking care of all injuries except, OD's on my own. However, most landed me in regular hospital with a sitter in the room watching my every move, then I was carted off to a mental hospital. Even though i came up with excuses for every injury: tripped over cat, fell off ladder putting up xmas lights, missed one of the steps in my grandmothers garage etc. the hospital would catch on sooner or later. My brother who is 7 years older than me, just calls me a big faker. My grandmother doesn't have a clue what is wrong with me.
I have been put on medications to help with the urges, thoughts of suicide, and I seem to be doing a lot better now than before. I hope they work, cause right now I would love to be with my mom, who passed away 10 years ago.
I'll try anything once.
I was scratching and cutting around twelve, then when that got obvious I start pulling my hair out to the bleeding point, and punching myself in the stomach, head or thighs. I still cut, and do a combination of cutting, hair-pulling, hitting, and when I'm in public I snap a rubber band on my wrist until I'm home.
what I do
I was 8 when I discoverd cutting now Im 11 I like it so much I dont feel the need to try anything els
Cutting
Why isnt one method enough?
im tired of this...i wanna do it...
help
i starve myself
i make myself throwup
i cut my upper legs
and lower arms
i need help
paperclips
schools are working so hard to make sure there aren't any knives in our backpacks, but they forgot something that works even better at cutting and it's found in every classroom. paperclips. i use them to cut myself. thin ones work better than thick ones. i stole at least 20 by now.
i sew my arm up. like i take
i sew my arm up. like i take thread and sew it into my skin. i also do that to my lips. no one likes me so i dont care and neither do they.
Someone cares about you!
Hi Anonymous, Your'e story or blog I guess you would call it, really touched me deeply. I'm not sure what tragedy in your life must have occured to make you want to sew your body. I can only imagine that it must have been something terrible. I am not a cutter or anything like that but, I have felt some deep dark depression which could have lead me to do that or worse, mostly brought on by my dad, step mom,previous school and job experiences. I just wanted you to know that someone does care about you. Even if you don't think anyone cares, Jesus does. I am not a Pastor, though I hope to be one day. Before I really gave my life to Jesus and started pursuing a relationship with him I was constantly on edge and depressed and had a lot built up rage and anger and unforgiveness When I gave my life to Jesus and started forgiving those I had a grudge against for so long I finally had inner peace and it no longer matters to me what any one thinks of me. I know some people who really love me, but I also know some people who really can't stand me and it bothers me not. If you give your life to Jesus and accept him as your Savior, you may still need to seek out help which is o.k. and you should not feel ashamed about doing that. I just wanted to let you know Jesus loves you more than anyone else ever could, because he is only love. It's not about being religious, Jesus wants to have a personal relationship with you. I just wanted you to know that you are not alone and that there is help out there. You don't have to stay depressed or continue sewing your body. The Holy Bible says... Those who seek the Lord shall not lack any good thing ( Psalm34 v.11). Remember that Jesus came to bind up the broken hearted and gives all his children a future. You are a Precious child of God. Jesus died, so you don't have to, he loves you very much. remember there is so much to live for and don't let anyone old you back. I will be praying for you. God bless you, Bill Cule.
i disagree
To the person that sews your arm, I am deeply sorry and I want you to know that you aren't alone but to Bill Cule, God has never done anything positive for me, He has never helped me in any way shape or form. I grew up a strong Christian but when I started cutting I asked for forgiveness and that I be able to overcome this challenge, I prayed many times for Him to heal my families wounds and the wounds of my own, but I have never seen or experienced anything to say that there is a loving God or that this Jesus loves me, because the more I prayed the farther down I fell, and boy did I fall far, and I am still falling, all thanks to God.
sewing body
you say you don't care and the others don't care. I challenge you that you do care because if you didn't you wouldn't self mutilate. I say this because I've been there. You are a very special and loveble person who deserves a lot of care from others and yourself.
okay, just one thing -
okay, just one thing - somebody out there cares about you and, hark, likes you too.
Live life, love life. And as long as you live, love yourself.
Blessed Be.
Nik