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I have just been looking for other people out there that are like me. I'm 37 and I started cutting a year ago this November. At first it was just with a dull knife that would cause some bleeding but not much. Then it got to where that wasn't enough and I went to Walmart and bought a pack of razors. I burn sometimes but it's hard to do that at home because it smells up my room, so gross. So I usually just stick to cutting.
I'm not looking for help, just communication with people that understand what I'm dealing with. I am not in a point in my life that I want to stop. I lied to my ex-boyfriend when I told him that I tossed my razors and I wanted to cut so bad when I was with him but I couldn't, I knew he would see. But now we are not together so I don't have to worry about him. He just acted like he cared...it was all lies. I'm over dealing with men and their lies, I can't find one that actually knows how to tell the truth. So aggravating.
I take lexapro for my depression, anger issues and anxiety. It does seem to help..not with the cutting, it can't take the razor out of my hand.
**~~UPDATE~~** Feb. 20, 2012
So I am now seeing a psychologist and the other doctor that prescribes the pills. We discuss how not to hate myself and I take Zoloft now to try and help with that. It is helping, but there are still times when I sit in my room and I’m drinking and all I can think about is cutting. We haven’t discussed the cutting at all. I brought it up in the start but nothing else has been said about it. I’m just having a kinda low time now because I’ll be turning 39 on Friday the 24th and it’s just a little rough.
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- animals
- reading
- starbucks
- staying away from people
- movies
- learning about the bible
- football
- TV - i watch a good deal of it
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thank you Holly. ♥ I should REALLY use my email more again... but thank you. |
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i feel so down, lost, empty  Not really just one thing, just happens when I sit around & start thinking. And I'll be 39 on Friday..ugh. |
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I am seeing a doctor now, but she hasn't discussed the cutting at all. We are working on all the negative thoughts that I have about myself |
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hi holly. long time no speak. |
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Sometimes I just cut or burn
Sometimes I just cut or burn to be doing it. So your not the only one like that, that feels like you don't have a real reason. |
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Thank you for the
Thank you for the reply...sorry I didn't get back sooner. Sometimes I foget to check on here. I was coming on here to actually make another post... |
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You have a great point here.
You have a great point here. We may self injure by cutting or burning or hitting ourselves and have people look at us like we need to be committed... |
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This is so true what you
This is so true what you said.... Remember, when you die and stand in front of God in Heaven he is only going to judge your heart and soul, not your... |
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I'm doing ok. The feelings come and go. How are you?
Jun 06